the everyday and the yesterday
I guess i just feel i have nothing of interst really say these days.
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Then again, once you sit and start typing... you realize that you did... so let's see what we got.
I was bored and playing around with my account here on livejournal. and i upgraded to sponsored plus to see what it was all about and now i have annoying ads. i'm sorry. it's annoying.
Turns out that the reason i've felt to ill of late is that my hematocrit and Ferritin counts are low. I've been anemic since March. oh the joy. I have been feeling better and therefore more productive the last few days which have been amazing. I don't know if my counts are up or what... but it's nice not to come home and crash because you are just dead.
Harp got her rabies vaccine yesterday and in a couple hours i need to go to the city treasure and renew her license. She was so funny yesterday at the vet. First of all she was so excited to be in the car and going some place and then when we got there she could smell all the animal scents and that got her even more excited. She was so excited before it was all over with that she wouldn't eat any treats and got her shot and didn't know it because she was too busy giving the nurse kisses. it amazes how much personality she has and how much more i love her everyday.
so yesterday i was pondering a few things. i realized the date and it made me think of this person. And i began thinking how people come into your lives and impact you. and some impact you a little and some impact you so much that every time they cross your mind you find yourself fighting back tears. Brought to tears for how they knew you, by the memories shared, by the love and warmth and support given. And every time this happens, for whatever reason, i want to share the warmth and love that i feel or have felt back. but in some situations... not so appropriate. and i wonder at what point do i become a stalker? or at least seem like one... but in reality, i have been forever changed by the Christ-like love shown that i want them to know. want to share my appreciation. want to encourage. and then i pause. and i don't for fear of seeming like a freak who can't let go... but what i can't let go is my gratitude and honestly, i don't want to let that go. so i say nothing. or i say some cookie cutter "hey." or "merry christmas." or "happy birthday." and let everything i really want to say... go. because does it matter? does it matter that i value that time, that person, the effect, the changes so much? does it matter that they know? i don't know. And then i wonder, have i ever loved someone so fierce? so pure? have i ever had that impact on another person? will i ever accomplish such Christ-likeness? i don't know. but i hope that i have. i hope that i will. i hope that i have made selfless choices in my life that let people know that they have been loved. and loved not just by me, but by the very Creator, himself.
and again.... i let it go.
*blah*
Then again, once you sit and start typing... you realize that you did... so let's see what we got.
I was bored and playing around with my account here on livejournal. and i upgraded to sponsored plus to see what it was all about and now i have annoying ads. i'm sorry. it's annoying.
Turns out that the reason i've felt to ill of late is that my hematocrit and Ferritin counts are low. I've been anemic since March. oh the joy. I have been feeling better and therefore more productive the last few days which have been amazing. I don't know if my counts are up or what... but it's nice not to come home and crash because you are just dead.
Harp got her rabies vaccine yesterday and in a couple hours i need to go to the city treasure and renew her license. She was so funny yesterday at the vet. First of all she was so excited to be in the car and going some place and then when we got there she could smell all the animal scents and that got her even more excited. She was so excited before it was all over with that she wouldn't eat any treats and got her shot and didn't know it because she was too busy giving the nurse kisses. it amazes how much personality she has and how much more i love her everyday.
so yesterday i was pondering a few things. i realized the date and it made me think of this person. And i began thinking how people come into your lives and impact you. and some impact you a little and some impact you so much that every time they cross your mind you find yourself fighting back tears. Brought to tears for how they knew you, by the memories shared, by the love and warmth and support given. And every time this happens, for whatever reason, i want to share the warmth and love that i feel or have felt back. but in some situations... not so appropriate. and i wonder at what point do i become a stalker? or at least seem like one... but in reality, i have been forever changed by the Christ-like love shown that i want them to know. want to share my appreciation. want to encourage. and then i pause. and i don't for fear of seeming like a freak who can't let go... but what i can't let go is my gratitude and honestly, i don't want to let that go. so i say nothing. or i say some cookie cutter "hey." or "merry christmas." or "happy birthday." and let everything i really want to say... go. because does it matter? does it matter that i value that time, that person, the effect, the changes so much? does it matter that they know? i don't know. And then i wonder, have i ever loved someone so fierce? so pure? have i ever had that impact on another person? will i ever accomplish such Christ-likeness? i don't know. but i hope that i have. i hope that i will. i hope that i have made selfless choices in my life that let people know that they have been loved. and loved not just by me, but by the very Creator, himself.
and again.... i let it go.