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i hate looking in the mirror and seeing something i dont like. i hate my body and i am doing alot to try and change it but it just isnt working!! i hate seeing skinny girls wearing the clothes that i have always wanted to wear but couldnt becaus ei have a stomach. i am sick and tired of sitting down and having and uncomfortable roll. i kno that i am not huge but i just dont like it. i feel uncomfortable around people and unattractive. i already hate my body shape because i have big hips. i wish i knew a way to make myself feel better about myself. i dont want to be skinny or thinner for the media or other people i want it for me. i want to be happy when i look in the mirror. i guess that i have to be really stricked about my diet and work out everyday. nothing extra for me. food is my comfort and my way of getting away from my problems. when i am bored i eat. when i am upset i eat. maybe when i start my job i wont be so bored anymore. i just want to feel better about myself and look good.
it also agravates me that i have no cute clothes. all i wear are sweat shirts to hide my stomache. and the fact that i have no money! i am really excited for this job. i really want to work every day for like 6,7,8 hours for $8 an hour.
i am not saying this for attention or anything i just wanted to vent. no one comment please i jsut wanted to talk.
i am tired now so i am going to go to bed. night
it also agravates me that i have no cute clothes. all i wear are sweat shirts to hide my stomache. and the fact that i have no money! i am really excited for this job. i really want to work every day for like 6,7,8 hours for $8 an hour.
i am not saying this for attention or anything i just wanted to vent. no one comment please i jsut wanted to talk.
i am tired now so i am going to go to bed. night