Figured I should do one Public Deep Journal Update
Friday-
Band Thingie at Pearland, It was pretty good
Saturday-
Band Thingie at San Antonio, It was pretty good, but waaay overcrowded
Bus Ride there, I passed out before the bus started moving to leave the parking lot.
On the Bus Ride Back, Where do I start?
It started out pretty cool, joking around and what not. Then I listened to Mallary's I-Pod.. we listened to some rap music, and that was entertaining.. Then she wanted to sleep, and let me listen to it, I listened to this one guy, Gavin Degraw, his music touched me. It got me thinking, got me wondering, got me writing actually lol. I wrote me a lil' jingle last night, but didnt actually write it down, so its mine and mine alone.. Last night on the bus though, I needed someone to talk to, BAD. But, all of my freinds were busy doing their own things, while I was sitting there hiding my tears behing a seat sitting staring out the window. It hurt, bad, I wanted to tell someone something, but like most of the time when I need to, you werent there. I still am feeling a little bit hurt on the inside, I never have had the feelings I felt last night. I wish that I could tell you all what it was, but I cant. I just have no idea what to do, what to say, even what to think. Just want things to get better. Most, well all of you have no idea what im talking about thats bothering me, because I didnt tell anyone about it. I want to sit down with someone, but either you "dont have the time to" or your not around for me to talk to you. So, once again ill ask if we can just sit down one day, soon, and just.. let me open up to you. That's what I want, I want a freind that I can go to, no matter what time of the day, tell them something in confidence that they wont tell anyone, have the confidence that they will help me through it, just someone who is there for me. When I need them.
Ok, I dont want to go any farther, because just thinking about it im starting to choke up...
Please comment if you read this... Thanks for Reading and God Bless.