why cant i help everyone be happy including myself

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why cant i help everyone i know be happy while i make myself happy

its so fucking hard

i try to do it so bad but it feels like everything is always crashing in on me

everytime i do something i make one person happy

and another pist at life

this is why i get depressed

cuz when my friends and family are not happy

i get really sad

then i get the worst anxiety attack ever

i need advice but there is just sometimes when you dont know how to ask for it

i've failed as a friends to all it seems

i feel like im like the biggest loser/asshole in the world