double standards
thursday i drove down to vancouver. went to visit ashley, along with some family. but mostly just ashley. we're pretty much official/exclusive now. haha. it's funny because i always said, i never really want to date people. theres too much responsibility and commitement to it. plus the fact that it takes up so much time. just seeing some of my friends and the girls they're with. like sean, who when he first started go out with his girlfriend now, was just completely whipped. luckly i set him straight. but, i'm going down next weekend too, ha.
what is kind of weird, it seems like there are people that don't want ashley and i to be together. like my aunt, and my cousin. even my mom cares less than everyone else. that's a suprise. i mean, im less than a month away from being 22 years old, can i not live my own life yet?
i know kelsey, my 10 yr old cousin, hates that i spent some much time with ashley instead of her, at her volleyball tournament. even though i was there for 3hrs. those seats are very very uncomfortable. i mean, she wanted me to leave even before i was actually going to leave saturday night. but a 10 yr old kid really has no say over what i do.
and then there is my aunt. who seems bitter. haha, she would rather see me with katy. she is just giving me all these reasons to why i should 'keep my options open'. she'd be happier if i dated both girls at the same time. sorry, but that kind of goes against my moral standards here. it just pisses me off that she isn't happy for me. like, ashley thinks i should tell katy about us. so she doesn't get confused, or think that i would still like to go out with her. but my aunt thinks differently. she doesn't think i should tell katy. "ashley just wants you to herself." well no shit. so what, i should just let her sit there, twiddling her thumbs. right.
friday night, my aunt says a few things that got me a little hot and bothered. and when i mentioned it to ashley, she got really upset(and i dont blame her). things like, "ashley just munipulated you. thats what girls do" what the fuck does that mean. i don't know what the hell im doing? im not some love struck teenager. or, "well, if it doesn't workout with ashley...", as if it won't? im more or less a positive thinker. people saying things like that, really puts a damper on everything. then there's, "well back in my day, i date one guy one weekend and another the next." i see no point in that, at all.
this is getting kind of long, and i have to see if i can go into work sort of early. i can't work frickin' 5pm-1am. way to late for me.
what is kind of weird, it seems like there are people that don't want ashley and i to be together. like my aunt, and my cousin. even my mom cares less than everyone else. that's a suprise. i mean, im less than a month away from being 22 years old, can i not live my own life yet?
i know kelsey, my 10 yr old cousin, hates that i spent some much time with ashley instead of her, at her volleyball tournament. even though i was there for 3hrs. those seats are very very uncomfortable. i mean, she wanted me to leave even before i was actually going to leave saturday night. but a 10 yr old kid really has no say over what i do.
and then there is my aunt. who seems bitter. haha, she would rather see me with katy. she is just giving me all these reasons to why i should 'keep my options open'. she'd be happier if i dated both girls at the same time. sorry, but that kind of goes against my moral standards here. it just pisses me off that she isn't happy for me. like, ashley thinks i should tell katy about us. so she doesn't get confused, or think that i would still like to go out with her. but my aunt thinks differently. she doesn't think i should tell katy. "ashley just wants you to herself." well no shit. so what, i should just let her sit there, twiddling her thumbs. right.
friday night, my aunt says a few things that got me a little hot and bothered. and when i mentioned it to ashley, she got really upset(and i dont blame her). things like, "ashley just munipulated you. thats what girls do" what the fuck does that mean. i don't know what the hell im doing? im not some love struck teenager. or, "well, if it doesn't workout with ashley...", as if it won't? im more or less a positive thinker. people saying things like that, really puts a damper on everything. then there's, "well back in my day, i date one guy one weekend and another the next." i see no point in that, at all.
this is getting kind of long, and i have to see if i can go into work sort of early. i can't work frickin' 5pm-1am. way to late for me.