Why?
So why is it I keep finding girls I like with boy friends? is this a curse or something?
So life has been a bit crazy lately, with school and trying to have a life of some sort. Its just got me so stressed, my back and neck just hurt from all the knots in them, and being alone just isnt helping. It just gets worse each day, my self esteem is falling fast because I feel that I never get a chance because my looks. If just weighed more and had muscels then maybe I would have a chance, maybe the girls would come to me insted of this up hill battle I fight.
I know I dont show it but when I am killing myself with mask I ware, it will be my doom. My worst fear is leaving this earth and being alone and unremembered, to just a old lost faded memory.
I dont know maybe I try to hard or am not paying attention to everything from the start. Oh well its a catch 22 I guess because I cant give up because I still feel bad and my fear will come true, but to keep on trying hurst just as bad. I guess I will just try and change things and keep at it and maybe things will go right.