Christmas passing and all that stuff aka an update if you still read this
It's that time of the year. It seems I've gotten into this habit of updating when serious things happen and around the holidays. I think I'll keep things that way until I have a reason to post more on here which most likely will not be happening any time soon since I don't really have many reasons to hang out on here much. I'm hanging elsewhere now and none of it has to with personal updates about my own life so... yeah. That's why I will keep randomly posting on here and hey you never know, maybe people will want to talk to me to again but meh. I stopped putting money into that bank ages ago.
No bad news this time so that's a good thing. I would say my life is actually very good right now. I'm happy. I feel like myself. Being in control of my destiny is a fucking fantastic thing. I don't have any time restraints and no obligations to keep me stressed out. It's the best choice I ever made and I feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be for once in my life. I may have said that many times in the past but this, it's very different and it's awesome. Being without reasons for excuses is brilliant. If I just don't want to do something then I don't have to. It's just great and it's the same with everyone else who lives here.
Christmas was actually very good this year. It's nice to finally be accepted by them and now they understand me and I understand them better. Also it was fantastic to have my brother back in town cause now everything's just better with our whole little family around here. They've come to understand what I am doing with my life and they support it fully. I got them some gifts and they got me some stuff. It was great to not be the only one who didn't get anyone anything so I didn't have to deal with shit from my stepdad or anything of the sort. I hope more holidays can be like this from now on.
They also got me a new external hard drive cause my previous one was threatening to explode on me. I beat that poor thing up so badly and now I know how to make sure I don't accidentally take the life out of my new one. Which hopefully means I'll be getting back to uploading soon now that this one doesn't make noises from a horror movie when I boot it up.
Also my family got me a big bag of fabrics and a basic sewing kit so I can get started with my special dream. The people I live with now are just as supportive and my friends mom is helping me learn how to use the sewing machine. I now have some patterns and designs in mind to start putting things together and starting this wonderful project up. I'm still working on a name for it but a good friend of mine has made some fantastic ideas. I'd tell more about what the project is but I don't want anyone else knowing until it's more prepared. I already have place to start selling it and spreading the word so when it's time then... I will reveal more and even show some of it here. So I'm excited about that. I would show some of the designs too but as I said it's a special project but all I can say is it has to do with clothing and accessories. So be on the lookout for the next update.
I also want to say I feel like myself. My true self. After casting off the stresses of religion and other terrible influences I have no guilt or anything really making me over think about my choices. I'm not saying I don't have morals or anything of the sort. You don't need religon to have those set of morals. I still know there's good and evil in the world and all that. I just know where I lie now and it's awesome. I wish this kind of happiness for everyone I know.
And I started doing more things with my make-up too. I got rid of my eyebrows and it was actually a lot of fun cause I can do more stuff with visual style now cause of it.
Additionally... I'd like to thank everyone who may not be in my life anymore. Because of you I've been able to find myself and figure my shit out. I know you'll never read this here and see it but hey, I'm thanking you anyways so deal with it.
Until next time~
No bad news this time so that's a good thing. I would say my life is actually very good right now. I'm happy. I feel like myself. Being in control of my destiny is a fucking fantastic thing. I don't have any time restraints and no obligations to keep me stressed out. It's the best choice I ever made and I feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be for once in my life. I may have said that many times in the past but this, it's very different and it's awesome. Being without reasons for excuses is brilliant. If I just don't want to do something then I don't have to. It's just great and it's the same with everyone else who lives here.
Christmas was actually very good this year. It's nice to finally be accepted by them and now they understand me and I understand them better. Also it was fantastic to have my brother back in town cause now everything's just better with our whole little family around here. They've come to understand what I am doing with my life and they support it fully. I got them some gifts and they got me some stuff. It was great to not be the only one who didn't get anyone anything so I didn't have to deal with shit from my stepdad or anything of the sort. I hope more holidays can be like this from now on.
They also got me a new external hard drive cause my previous one was threatening to explode on me. I beat that poor thing up so badly and now I know how to make sure I don't accidentally take the life out of my new one. Which hopefully means I'll be getting back to uploading soon now that this one doesn't make noises from a horror movie when I boot it up.
Also my family got me a big bag of fabrics and a basic sewing kit so I can get started with my special dream. The people I live with now are just as supportive and my friends mom is helping me learn how to use the sewing machine. I now have some patterns and designs in mind to start putting things together and starting this wonderful project up. I'm still working on a name for it but a good friend of mine has made some fantastic ideas. I'd tell more about what the project is but I don't want anyone else knowing until it's more prepared. I already have place to start selling it and spreading the word so when it's time then... I will reveal more and even show some of it here. So I'm excited about that. I would show some of the designs too but as I said it's a special project but all I can say is it has to do with clothing and accessories. So be on the lookout for the next update.
I also want to say I feel like myself. My true self. After casting off the stresses of religion and other terrible influences I have no guilt or anything really making me over think about my choices. I'm not saying I don't have morals or anything of the sort. You don't need religon to have those set of morals. I still know there's good and evil in the world and all that. I just know where I lie now and it's awesome. I wish this kind of happiness for everyone I know.
And I started doing more things with my make-up too. I got rid of my eyebrows and it was actually a lot of fun cause I can do more stuff with visual style now cause of it.
Additionally... I'd like to thank everyone who may not be in my life anymore. Because of you I've been able to find myself and figure my shit out. I know you'll never read this here and see it but hey, I'm thanking you anyways so deal with it.
Until next time~