(F-list please read: important) I've had a nice long time to think
With everything's that happened to me regarding this journal and everything around it when it comes down to it... I just don't really want it anymore. I've been spending my time more on tumblr and withdrawing more and more away from people as the weeks pass. All this journal makes me think about is how much time I felt I wasted on it. I barely talk to anyone I met through this thing and I'm tired of worrying about it and what people read from it.
I can't post the self-pity and how my life is at the moment cause of how things have gone all I feel is eyes watching it and judging it even if that isn't that case it's what I've gotten for a long time on here. There are a few friends yes I will miss that left the few comments I get anymore on here when I post things but for now I just don't have the heart of continue it.
This no longer feels like me and the person that's on here I can't handle it much anymore. I'd rather spare people from being another extremely depressing number on here and have to worry about the content cause it may/may not make people want to talk to me anymore... not that they really do anyways. I know it's a two way street and I'm doing part of the harm myself not talking to those who are there but when most of the conversations are just dead anyways I hardly feel like having them since I'm not even into most of the same things anymore.
Even tumblr hasn't touched me really yet since I just spend my time on there reblogging stuff that makes me smile a little and occasionally posting some of my favorite pictures but that's nothing I really pour myself into cause that hasn't worked to fix any of my social problems either.
From now on I will just be using this to do stuff in the comms I help out with. I'll still be reading stuff from my f-list and commenting on occasion but otherwise this journal will no longer be updated.
If you wish to keep contact with me or possibly follow me somewhere else feel free to follow my tumblr here at: http://tetsusama69.tumblr.com/
Also you can add my messengers which I'm on most of the day:
Skype: purplemirotic
MSN: acerimmer1986@hotmail.com
Yahoo: tetsu_sama69
I would say I could possibly talked out of this choice but it doesn't seem to really matter. I've reached out enough to not really want to put effort into it anymore. The people I gave a true shit about barely talk to me and when I mention it I get shit for it so it's really pointless to whine about it when my hand is going to get smacked for it anyways.
So unless things change for now, this is goodbye.
I can't post the self-pity and how my life is at the moment cause of how things have gone all I feel is eyes watching it and judging it even if that isn't that case it's what I've gotten for a long time on here. There are a few friends yes I will miss that left the few comments I get anymore on here when I post things but for now I just don't have the heart of continue it.
This no longer feels like me and the person that's on here I can't handle it much anymore. I'd rather spare people from being another extremely depressing number on here and have to worry about the content cause it may/may not make people want to talk to me anymore... not that they really do anyways. I know it's a two way street and I'm doing part of the harm myself not talking to those who are there but when most of the conversations are just dead anyways I hardly feel like having them since I'm not even into most of the same things anymore.
Even tumblr hasn't touched me really yet since I just spend my time on there reblogging stuff that makes me smile a little and occasionally posting some of my favorite pictures but that's nothing I really pour myself into cause that hasn't worked to fix any of my social problems either.
From now on I will just be using this to do stuff in the comms I help out with. I'll still be reading stuff from my f-list and commenting on occasion but otherwise this journal will no longer be updated.
If you wish to keep contact with me or possibly follow me somewhere else feel free to follow my tumblr here at: http://tetsusama69.tumblr.com/
Also you can add my messengers which I'm on most of the day:
Skype: purplemirotic
MSN: acerimmer1986@hotmail.com
Yahoo: tetsu_sama69
I would say I could possibly talked out of this choice but it doesn't seem to really matter. I've reached out enough to not really want to put effort into it anymore. The people I gave a true shit about barely talk to me and when I mention it I get shit for it so it's really pointless to whine about it when my hand is going to get smacked for it anyways.
So unless things change for now, this is goodbye.