every day and other bullshit in my head that comes out sometimes
People make promises and all that bullcrap. They say things and if you're lucky they mean it but usually it's a let down. I've even made promises knowing I wouldn't keep them. Who hasn't anyways? Maybe that's just me giving out one of my faults but then again that's what makes us all humans after all. Our imperfections and little quirks.
Granted I've been on an emotional roller coaster for a while. Every day I kinda see and find more and more reasons for people not to talk to me and why I don't bother with people much any more either. Oh yeah, I know people are online but the hardest part is knowing whether or not it's worth spending time talking to those people or if it's worth them talking to me.
Every once and a while I run into the occasional person who is somewhat similar to me, someone worth calling a "friend" but as usual like most of the people in my life and in many others they don't stick around or find some reason not to talk to anyone like I do. Maybe I have the same issue plenty of other people around this world and online community have. It's best to hide your face or not bother with issues. Sometimes it's easier under the guise of being anonymous, whatever makes it easier for people they do what it is they have to do.
But mostly it seems to come down to avoidance which comes from mistranslated words and badly timed fits of emotion and all that crap. Blame on whatever you want I know I do. It's mostly just me being annoyed. I never sit here and say "hey, don't talk to me" though I might give off that aura or image sometimes to other people and hey, no one's perfect. As the weeks and time passes by less and less people stick around. Maybe they get bored too, I don't know. I'm not the best at this kinda thing either I'm just rambling here anyways since this doesn't get read by anyone really.
That's what this is here for. To vent out things, share things, to write things, to expose things, whatever you use it for. Social media however, twitter, facebook, tumblr, whatever you prefer to use to socialize is becoming something extremely overrated for me. You don't make friends online anymore really. Just people you can stand to talk to until you get bored or them or whatever excuse people make not to talk to each other.
You hear and see people talk about it all the time online and say how the internet and all that has made their lives better and in some aspects it has with my life but in the matter of friends and socializing... no. In fact I've think it's made things worse for me. I met special people and made good friends with the internet but are any of them around anymore. No. Maybe I'm just being blind to those I have made good friendships with on here cause I'm being ignorant or whatever again not like it matters cause it's starting to all be a joke to me. You can reach out your hands for help or maybe even try to get a laugh from people but for me, no. I don't. I don't have exciting or important things to share. No jokes between friends. None of it.
I started up my music blog as well to see if I can run into people via that way but that doesn't do anything either. Maybe I'm just strange or the facts of the internet are forever proven and people don't really want anything at all but someone to listen to them. I don't know. I'm still rambling. Hell, livejournal's the only thing I joined of my own will that someone didn't suggest to me and that's probably why I haven't put it down yet. I can't say 100% why. But lately it seems to be a way for me to track things like how I am mentally and follow news and things that I think are important or make me happy.
When I express happiness it's been denied in the past. When I express anger I get told not to be. When I express sadness or depression I get accused for it. I can't say I'm happy anymore really for the friends I've made online and for the ones I have in real life. Maybe except for two people and they know who they are, maybe three but that's about it and they're people I really didn't meet through here except one. The rest... I can't say anything about them and nor will I blame them or hate them. If I hate anything it's the choices that are made and actions that are done. But I'd never blame a single person and I never will.
So I can sit here and say I'm lonely and tired but my entry isn't much different from others and that might be why I've stopped posting reviews and graphics for others. Cause in the end... I really don't give anyone anything and they never give anything in return in the end so I see no point in it.
But I'll open the door on this, allow others to express otherwise, whatever works for them. Feel free to comment here about it since I won't be LJ-cutting this cause I don't want to. And yes, like other sad and depressed people I'm calling for attention and I'll act like I don't want it or I'll reject it completely. Meh. Hit me up if you want about it too.
MSN/Windows Live: acerimmer1986@hotmail.com
Yahoo: tetsu_sama69
Skype: purplemirotic
Sincerely,
another sad and lonely statistic on the internet
Granted I've been on an emotional roller coaster for a while. Every day I kinda see and find more and more reasons for people not to talk to me and why I don't bother with people much any more either. Oh yeah, I know people are online but the hardest part is knowing whether or not it's worth spending time talking to those people or if it's worth them talking to me.
Every once and a while I run into the occasional person who is somewhat similar to me, someone worth calling a "friend" but as usual like most of the people in my life and in many others they don't stick around or find some reason not to talk to anyone like I do. Maybe I have the same issue plenty of other people around this world and online community have. It's best to hide your face or not bother with issues. Sometimes it's easier under the guise of being anonymous, whatever makes it easier for people they do what it is they have to do.
But mostly it seems to come down to avoidance which comes from mistranslated words and badly timed fits of emotion and all that crap. Blame on whatever you want I know I do. It's mostly just me being annoyed. I never sit here and say "hey, don't talk to me" though I might give off that aura or image sometimes to other people and hey, no one's perfect. As the weeks and time passes by less and less people stick around. Maybe they get bored too, I don't know. I'm not the best at this kinda thing either I'm just rambling here anyways since this doesn't get read by anyone really.
That's what this is here for. To vent out things, share things, to write things, to expose things, whatever you use it for. Social media however, twitter, facebook, tumblr, whatever you prefer to use to socialize is becoming something extremely overrated for me. You don't make friends online anymore really. Just people you can stand to talk to until you get bored or them or whatever excuse people make not to talk to each other.
You hear and see people talk about it all the time online and say how the internet and all that has made their lives better and in some aspects it has with my life but in the matter of friends and socializing... no. In fact I've think it's made things worse for me. I met special people and made good friends with the internet but are any of them around anymore. No. Maybe I'm just being blind to those I have made good friendships with on here cause I'm being ignorant or whatever again not like it matters cause it's starting to all be a joke to me. You can reach out your hands for help or maybe even try to get a laugh from people but for me, no. I don't. I don't have exciting or important things to share. No jokes between friends. None of it.
I started up my music blog as well to see if I can run into people via that way but that doesn't do anything either. Maybe I'm just strange or the facts of the internet are forever proven and people don't really want anything at all but someone to listen to them. I don't know. I'm still rambling. Hell, livejournal's the only thing I joined of my own will that someone didn't suggest to me and that's probably why I haven't put it down yet. I can't say 100% why. But lately it seems to be a way for me to track things like how I am mentally and follow news and things that I think are important or make me happy.
When I express happiness it's been denied in the past. When I express anger I get told not to be. When I express sadness or depression I get accused for it. I can't say I'm happy anymore really for the friends I've made online and for the ones I have in real life. Maybe except for two people and they know who they are, maybe three but that's about it and they're people I really didn't meet through here except one. The rest... I can't say anything about them and nor will I blame them or hate them. If I hate anything it's the choices that are made and actions that are done. But I'd never blame a single person and I never will.
So I can sit here and say I'm lonely and tired but my entry isn't much different from others and that might be why I've stopped posting reviews and graphics for others. Cause in the end... I really don't give anyone anything and they never give anything in return in the end so I see no point in it.
But I'll open the door on this, allow others to express otherwise, whatever works for them. Feel free to comment here about it since I won't be LJ-cutting this cause I don't want to. And yes, like other sad and depressed people I'm calling for attention and I'll act like I don't want it or I'll reject it completely. Meh. Hit me up if you want about it too.
MSN/Windows Live: acerimmer1986@hotmail.com
Yahoo: tetsu_sama69
Skype: purplemirotic
Sincerely,
another sad and lonely statistic on the internet