I figured out my problem!
Explains everything.
Feeling a lot better today. Spent some time playing games and having a few chats with my roommate and some other people. I'm just kinda gonna take things in strides until I can get some health insurance sorted so I can see a doctor about my depression problems. I'm thinking more about my roommate and other such close friends who are worth the time. So far it's been paying off just keeping them in mind along with my mom and my brother.
Mostly just seems to be Emi has her moments and then she gets better. I think that's the explanation. Just sometimes being a human and having these emotion things tend to get in the way. I'm still keeping my eyes on the poll I posted yesterday and when it ends I'll sort out getting onto that random stuff. Until then I'm just sort of wishing myself good luck and hoping for the best even though my mind is like "NEGAVTIVE MODE ACTIVE" I'm just going to ignore it. Maybe I'll just get a few drinks this next weekend and kick back a little to relax more.
But I think I'm as okay as I will be right now which is fine with me. I can live with it for now. :)