Oh my, how time flies...
It's been over a month. I seem to have forgotten about this LJ yet again. In the time I have been gone, I have been to the grand canyon and back. I would add to that list, but traveling 4200 miles can stand on its own as an achievement.
Father has been ill, we have been to many doctors and many tests have been done, but no one has any idea what's wrong. Such is life, but seeing him suffer is difficult... we do as well as we can. 'Tis all we can do.
In this time away, I have also lost my only RL friend. She didn't pass away, or anything... she snapped and endeavored to commit suicide on my living room floor. Suffice to say, as long as I have known the dear girl she needs the kind of help I cannot give to her, so I shall let her be for a while. When she stops trying to use me as a replacement for her mother, we can talk. As much as I would like to help this person, there's just nothing I can do, and coddling her, babying her... sheltering her from reality won't help her in the end. She's an adult. As harsh a reality as it is to bear, she needs to accept this, and realize that she will be on her own sooner rather than later. I can't prepare her for the world ahead, it's something she has to learn on her own. So, I wish her the best, but for now our paths have come untwined.
Perhaps it's for the best.
I've started playing Minecraft, dear LJ. And I must say... how addicting can one game be? On the depressing side of gaming news, no update on a potential TWEWY 2... but I'm not surprised. Squeenix is working on FF XIII-2 right now, they're not gonna work on a cult masterpiece when a sure seller is in the making, and I can understand that -- the bottom line is the goal for every company.
But don't forget about your small but rabid group of fans craving innovation and moving plot, Square. We're trusting you to keep on making awesome games on the side.
... Why am I badmouthing a game that hasn't been released yet, you ask?
I remember FF X-2. I just have visions of Lightning and Dress Spheres, okay? And it's a frightening sight.
I often avoid talking about anything I've heard on the news... because I avoid the news. I've enough depression in my life without the rest of the world's shambles to listen to, but... I do have one small comment.
FOR FRIGHT'S SAKE, ENOUGH ABOUT CASEY ANTHONY. Convict her, kill her, set her free but for Arceus' sake I am tired of hearing the same case facts repeated endlessly on every damn channel. I used to like watching In Session, now I can't because all I hear is something I've been hearing since... what, '08? Bah.
I think I need a new LJ icon. I seem to be lacking one for "today was a good day." I mean, I have the "Because I'm Awesome" Kamina one, but some days don't warrant that much MANLINESS, ya know?
Somehow, I have come to use this LJ as a personal soundingboard, not quite a diary, but a place to organize my thoughts. I suppose it's due to no one ever reading what I type, the near anonymity instilling a sense of false security in me and letting me speak a little more freely... after all, I did choose a username by which it would be hard for me to be found by those I know. Some things, you don't want others to hear, be they of a positive or a negative nature. I keep upbeat and never falter in father's presence, but I really do worry for his health, for what's wrong with him and how long he will be around.
If possible, I'd prefer to not lose both parents in one year... at the very least, I would like to be a legal adult before I'm thrust into this world on my own.
I really do talk too much. We'll meet again, LJ.
Father has been ill, we have been to many doctors and many tests have been done, but no one has any idea what's wrong. Such is life, but seeing him suffer is difficult... we do as well as we can. 'Tis all we can do.
In this time away, I have also lost my only RL friend. She didn't pass away, or anything... she snapped and endeavored to commit suicide on my living room floor. Suffice to say, as long as I have known the dear girl she needs the kind of help I cannot give to her, so I shall let her be for a while. When she stops trying to use me as a replacement for her mother, we can talk. As much as I would like to help this person, there's just nothing I can do, and coddling her, babying her... sheltering her from reality won't help her in the end. She's an adult. As harsh a reality as it is to bear, she needs to accept this, and realize that she will be on her own sooner rather than later. I can't prepare her for the world ahead, it's something she has to learn on her own. So, I wish her the best, but for now our paths have come untwined.
Perhaps it's for the best.
I've started playing Minecraft, dear LJ. And I must say... how addicting can one game be? On the depressing side of gaming news, no update on a potential TWEWY 2... but I'm not surprised. Squeenix is working on FF XIII-2 right now, they're not gonna work on a cult masterpiece when a sure seller is in the making, and I can understand that -- the bottom line is the goal for every company.
But don't forget about your small but rabid group of fans craving innovation and moving plot, Square. We're trusting you to keep on making awesome games on the side.
... Why am I badmouthing a game that hasn't been released yet, you ask?
I remember FF X-2. I just have visions of Lightning and Dress Spheres, okay? And it's a frightening sight.
I often avoid talking about anything I've heard on the news... because I avoid the news. I've enough depression in my life without the rest of the world's shambles to listen to, but... I do have one small comment.
FOR FRIGHT'S SAKE, ENOUGH ABOUT CASEY ANTHONY. Convict her, kill her, set her free but for Arceus' sake I am tired of hearing the same case facts repeated endlessly on every damn channel. I used to like watching In Session, now I can't because all I hear is something I've been hearing since... what, '08? Bah.
I think I need a new LJ icon. I seem to be lacking one for "today was a good day." I mean, I have the "Because I'm Awesome" Kamina one, but some days don't warrant that much MANLINESS, ya know?
Somehow, I have come to use this LJ as a personal soundingboard, not quite a diary, but a place to organize my thoughts. I suppose it's due to no one ever reading what I type, the near anonymity instilling a sense of false security in me and letting me speak a little more freely... after all, I did choose a username by which it would be hard for me to be found by those I know. Some things, you don't want others to hear, be they of a positive or a negative nature. I keep upbeat and never falter in father's presence, but I really do worry for his health, for what's wrong with him and how long he will be around.
If possible, I'd prefer to not lose both parents in one year... at the very least, I would like to be a legal adult before I'm thrust into this world on my own.
I really do talk too much. We'll meet again, LJ.