keeps you wanting more
the divorce is getting more and more riduculous. i'm being forced to spend time with my mother. which would be fine, if she wasn't constantly getting on my nerves and throwing herself a pity party every other second.
there is a huge folder here, right in front of me at the office. it has in it all the information from social security numbers to child support. the judge was like, "meredith, i know you're in college, but you're not 18, so living on campus might not be a realistic option at the time. this is a hard time for your parents, and you need to realize that, and be there for them as much as possible. living in the dorms only divides your life even further, and you don't need to be doing that to yourself." i corrected him and said "no, listen, living on campus will make my life whole, instead of divided and partial. i won't need to go back and forth, if i'm on my own." then he said i was being self centered, selfish, and not looking out for what was best for everyone. he's right. i am doing all that. i've worried myself with my parents problems all my life- and look where it got me... no where. and look where it got them. divorced. so obviously that plan went to the birds. now i just look out for myself, and concentrate on not ending up like them. i know it sounds like i'm being a bitch, but you don't understand. i've been put through hell because of my parents relationship. granted they have given me anything and everything i needed, and i am eternally grateful; but they left out one vital part to life. they forgot to give me a stable family life that you need to come home to for the support you need to carry on your own life in the right direction.
last weekend was one crazy bad-ass weekend. i went to louisville for my cousin's graduation. that is the innocent part. here comes the juicy info.
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sike/psych! i can't tell you. you all might get me in trouble. hahahhaha
...
then i came back and went to another graduation party.
Ps- i might tell more of the story later, but i have to get back to work now. i thought i had a lot more time than i really had. but it is definitely a story to look forward to if you're into scandalous and sneaky activities.
PPs- thank you ian
PPPs- thank you brandon
PPPPs- i love you samantha and robin- you're the greatest family ever!
PPPPPs- good news/update on Tom Petty!! woo hoo
there is a huge folder here, right in front of me at the office. it has in it all the information from social security numbers to child support. the judge was like, "meredith, i know you're in college, but you're not 18, so living on campus might not be a realistic option at the time. this is a hard time for your parents, and you need to realize that, and be there for them as much as possible. living in the dorms only divides your life even further, and you don't need to be doing that to yourself." i corrected him and said "no, listen, living on campus will make my life whole, instead of divided and partial. i won't need to go back and forth, if i'm on my own." then he said i was being self centered, selfish, and not looking out for what was best for everyone. he's right. i am doing all that. i've worried myself with my parents problems all my life- and look where it got me... no where. and look where it got them. divorced. so obviously that plan went to the birds. now i just look out for myself, and concentrate on not ending up like them. i know it sounds like i'm being a bitch, but you don't understand. i've been put through hell because of my parents relationship. granted they have given me anything and everything i needed, and i am eternally grateful; but they left out one vital part to life. they forgot to give me a stable family life that you need to come home to for the support you need to carry on your own life in the right direction.
last weekend was one crazy bad-ass weekend. i went to louisville for my cousin's graduation. that is the innocent part. here comes the juicy info.
...
sike/psych! i can't tell you. you all might get me in trouble. hahahhaha
...
then i came back and went to another graduation party.
Ps- i might tell more of the story later, but i have to get back to work now. i thought i had a lot more time than i really had. but it is definitely a story to look forward to if you're into scandalous and sneaky activities.
PPs- thank you ian
PPPs- thank you brandon
PPPPs- i love you samantha and robin- you're the greatest family ever!
PPPPPs- good news/update on Tom Petty!! woo hoo