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So it's been about five years since my last update....
There are 20-some class days left this year, and I'm officially a junior as of January. All this means is that I get to take it easy with my schedules over the next two years; I like school enough that I don't really want to graduate early.
There have been a number of shifts in my life these last few months, the result of which is that I just want to move forward all the time. Forward in an impatient way, and that's not good. I should enjoy the present for all the time it takes/gives me.
As a person, I feel stupid a lot, too. I'm lazy and I don't know enough. On the other hand, I've been randomly receiving affirmations from people I trust, so I feel bad about feeling stupid, etc.
I need to get on stage again. I need that process. I need something to study and memorize and care about. Something to learn. I'm bored.
And no matter how many times it comes up, it's always awkward to remember that you have a past that you've put behind you because there's nothing more you can do with it.
There are 20-some class days left this year, and I'm officially a junior as of January. All this means is that I get to take it easy with my schedules over the next two years; I like school enough that I don't really want to graduate early.
There have been a number of shifts in my life these last few months, the result of which is that I just want to move forward all the time. Forward in an impatient way, and that's not good. I should enjoy the present for all the time it takes/gives me.
As a person, I feel stupid a lot, too. I'm lazy and I don't know enough. On the other hand, I've been randomly receiving affirmations from people I trust, so I feel bad about feeling stupid, etc.
I need to get on stage again. I need that process. I need something to study and memorize and care about. Something to learn. I'm bored.
And no matter how many times it comes up, it's always awkward to remember that you have a past that you've put behind you because there's nothing more you can do with it.