dire circumstance of a known fact
listening to some music today that got me thinkin.
am i better off alone.
i dunno its seems like life is treating me poorly.
what are the feelings? i can't decide what to do with myself. every day i drag myself deeper with questions. drugs eventually get old and stop working after a while. you need something stronger... i really need help. i am losing my mind. i don't know what to think. i can't fix this. i can't stop bringing myself to my knees. why does the emptiness haunt me. i can no longer front the happiness its just not there. what the fuck is holding me down? i am tired of the breathing and sleepless nights. i wish i could decide my fate. rules are so easily broken why to i abide them? can't i just break them? why did i fall into the miserable pit. my chains are heavy and they are suffocating me. breathless ...........tired...............alone? so sad this spectical which is writting. so lonley and sad...........i can't help but cry on the inside everytime i see myself. everyone is seeing how i really am and they don't accept it......there is no help i am just draggin some one else down. i am sorry they have to listen to me and sorry they have to know me. i wish i had never been apart of this cause i have let some else into my chamber of decaying life. they don't deserve anymore yet i still lay the darkness i have into their lap. stay away from me before i break you like i have broken myself. the destruction does not stop. it is only a step behind me. don't be there for me i don't deserve it.
am i better off alone.
i dunno its seems like life is treating me poorly.
what are the feelings? i can't decide what to do with myself. every day i drag myself deeper with questions. drugs eventually get old and stop working after a while. you need something stronger... i really need help. i am losing my mind. i don't know what to think. i can't fix this. i can't stop bringing myself to my knees. why does the emptiness haunt me. i can no longer front the happiness its just not there. what the fuck is holding me down? i am tired of the breathing and sleepless nights. i wish i could decide my fate. rules are so easily broken why to i abide them? can't i just break them? why did i fall into the miserable pit. my chains are heavy and they are suffocating me. breathless ...........tired...............alone? so sad this spectical which is writting. so lonley and sad...........i can't help but cry on the inside everytime i see myself. everyone is seeing how i really am and they don't accept it......there is no help i am just draggin some one else down. i am sorry they have to listen to me and sorry they have to know me. i wish i had never been apart of this cause i have let some else into my chamber of decaying life. they don't deserve anymore yet i still lay the darkness i have into their lap. stay away from me before i break you like i have broken myself. the destruction does not stop. it is only a step behind me. don't be there for me i don't deserve it.