A lot of what ifs
It's a quarter to two in the morning. I've been awake since 11 and I can't go back to sleep. I have to work in the morning. This sucks.
I received an email tonight. And after I read it, I didn't know how to feel. In the course of being totally honest, my first thought wasn't a very nice one. It wasn't mean-spirited, but it was more along the lines of "it figures". Then came all the what ifs. And I hate all the what ifs because I thought I had slammed them all into the far corner of my heart and locked them. I thought I was done with it all. The majority of me is done, but that one little part, well, that part of me is yelling the loudest. And I can't go back to sleep with all that crap in my head.
I received an email tonight. And after I read it, I didn't know how to feel. In the course of being totally honest, my first thought wasn't a very nice one. It wasn't mean-spirited, but it was more along the lines of "it figures". Then came all the what ifs. And I hate all the what ifs because I thought I had slammed them all into the far corner of my heart and locked them. I thought I was done with it all. The majority of me is done, but that one little part, well, that part of me is yelling the loudest. And I can't go back to sleep with all that crap in my head.