Another Ugh

[tessil]

Other than look at fabric, I didn't do anything I set out to do this weekend. I fucking hate this feeling of helplessness and inadequacy. I realized that's how I truly feel - inadequate. Which is stupid, I know. You would say the same if I told you the whole situation. I know that one of these days I'm going to have to just let go. Short of some sort of disaster, nothing is going to change. FUCK!

I'm heading off to take a bath with a rather large bottle of wine.