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i have 4 math problems left unfinished. and there are times when, in the middle of the night, i pull out my book and try and try to decipher them. and then i give up and put my book away. an hour later my book's open again, and i am trying and trying and trying again. but the math always wins. and i hate it. and this is how i study, with sudden splurges of energy and the perfection mindset that i can't live another minute or get another wink of sleep without figuring out the answers. and these splurges continue until i get so frustrated that sweat drips from my palms and blood rushes to my little head. but maybe it's my teacher's fault for skipping from chapter 4 to chapter 8 to chapter 10. either way, i hate calculus.