300 days...again
Let's see...where did I leave off. Ah that's right....going to Europe. Well we did. I spent 3 weeks in Romania. I actually was able to communicate pretty well. It was a wonderful, amazing, thrilling trip. Oh...and he proposed to me. Yeah...that's right...I'm getting married. MARRIED!!! WTF? Holy crap. He proposed at the top of a mountain in Sinia Romania with a stunning ring. This happened on May 15th, just past our 7 month mark of seeing each other. Woah. So yeah, here we go...
But let me back up a minute. In January I went to see an RE. Apparently I have a mild case of ovulatory PCOS. Which means very little other than it's a little more difficult to get pregnant. Having PCOS means I really need to be damn close to my ideal weight in order to have an easier time conceiving. The Dr said even 10lbs can make a big difference. So yeah. I'm about 20lbs over my ideal weight, so I'll definitely be trying to get back to that before I get back on the TTC train.
For my birthday, J took me to the mountains for a weekend (totally awesome) and we actually just cooked together the whole weekend. It was pretty cool. Then for his birthday (the big 30 - yeah that makes him younger than me - yeah I remember swearing not to do that again *sigh*), I did a surprise party with all of his friends (he was SHOCKED - hehe) and then took him to a nice dinner and a cool hotel downtown.
Umm...other things that happened in between Christmas and the Romania trip...oh..I got an IUD. Yeah...that was...intense. J went with me (and was totally freaked out, but wonderful). It hurt....like really hurt like hell, but then it was over and I didn't have to worry about it anymore. It was a little difficult for me emotionally too. Almost like a giving up sort of thing. But I know it's just a pause in the process...
So yeah...back around to the title. 300 days...
It's not actually 300 days (290 actually), but I thought a lot about it when the 300 day mark hit. I remember when I was counting down to TTC. 300 days was the time I strung the 300 paperclips across my wall and had a physical countdown reminder of starting to TTC. Now I'm counting down to my wedding. It's exciting and terrifying and just a lot to take in. So now we're working on wedding planning, moving in together, getting my house ready to rent, getting my animals used to the new place, combining money and other assets, and getting to know each other's families. It's amazing. We have been together 10 months tomorrow and have COMPLETELY flipped each other's lives around. Both our lives have totally 100% changed and we haven't even know each other a year. Woah. And the really crazy thing is...I'm ridiculously happy. Like crazy happy. Like the silly, laugh until your face hurts happy. He amazes me. I can see how much he really loves me every time he looks at me. I have never had someone give so much of themselves to me. So amazing.
So here we are....yeah there have been a few tough spots and I'm sure lots more to come, but we communicate really well. I really feel like he would do anything in the world for me.
I'm sure I'm missing stuff...but that's all I can think of at the moment. I just really felt like I needed to write something down about hitting my 300 day countdown again. (this is actually the 3rd time...first time I was engaged, TTC, and now this go round - which will be the last time I'm ever engaged, no joke, I'm done) I'll end with a few things about the wedding planning...
Weddings are EXPENSIVE. Like really expensive. We're paying for it all ourselves. It's a good thing I had put up a good bit of money for TTC (so instead of buying sperm with it...I'm buying a wedding dress!) The date is set, the venue is booked, the photographer is booked, we've been meeting with officiants, caterers, and DJs. We're registered at one place and know the other one. So far so good. OH!!! And we bought wedding rings! I was ridiculously excited to see a ring on his finger. Giddy like a little kid. My wedding band ended up costing a lot more than I was planning, but I was lucky I had something to trade in. I still had my engagement ring and wedding band from my previous engagement. So I was able to trade it in and get my wedding band for free! I think he paid about $4k for the ring and they gave me $2500 for it...so I call that a win. I supposed there's some odd symbolism there trading in one ring for another. Hmmm...
Anyways...I'm moving forward. I'm still sad in some ways to close the SMC chapter on my life (and it will ALWAYS be part of who I am), but I'm really optimistic for the future. I'm still worried about having problems getting pregnant later, but I will cross that bridge when I come to it. For now, I'll keep my new countdown going and look forward to these new plans I'm making.
I'm not sure anyone reads this anymore...I guess I write it more for me. But if anyone is hanging out out there...how's it going? :-)
But let me back up a minute. In January I went to see an RE. Apparently I have a mild case of ovulatory PCOS. Which means very little other than it's a little more difficult to get pregnant. Having PCOS means I really need to be damn close to my ideal weight in order to have an easier time conceiving. The Dr said even 10lbs can make a big difference. So yeah. I'm about 20lbs over my ideal weight, so I'll definitely be trying to get back to that before I get back on the TTC train.
For my birthday, J took me to the mountains for a weekend (totally awesome) and we actually just cooked together the whole weekend. It was pretty cool. Then for his birthday (the big 30 - yeah that makes him younger than me - yeah I remember swearing not to do that again *sigh*), I did a surprise party with all of his friends (he was SHOCKED - hehe) and then took him to a nice dinner and a cool hotel downtown.
Umm...other things that happened in between Christmas and the Romania trip...oh..I got an IUD. Yeah...that was...intense. J went with me (and was totally freaked out, but wonderful). It hurt....like really hurt like hell, but then it was over and I didn't have to worry about it anymore. It was a little difficult for me emotionally too. Almost like a giving up sort of thing. But I know it's just a pause in the process...
So yeah...back around to the title. 300 days...
It's not actually 300 days (290 actually), but I thought a lot about it when the 300 day mark hit. I remember when I was counting down to TTC. 300 days was the time I strung the 300 paperclips across my wall and had a physical countdown reminder of starting to TTC. Now I'm counting down to my wedding. It's exciting and terrifying and just a lot to take in. So now we're working on wedding planning, moving in together, getting my house ready to rent, getting my animals used to the new place, combining money and other assets, and getting to know each other's families. It's amazing. We have been together 10 months tomorrow and have COMPLETELY flipped each other's lives around. Both our lives have totally 100% changed and we haven't even know each other a year. Woah. And the really crazy thing is...I'm ridiculously happy. Like crazy happy. Like the silly, laugh until your face hurts happy. He amazes me. I can see how much he really loves me every time he looks at me. I have never had someone give so much of themselves to me. So amazing.
So here we are....yeah there have been a few tough spots and I'm sure lots more to come, but we communicate really well. I really feel like he would do anything in the world for me.
I'm sure I'm missing stuff...but that's all I can think of at the moment. I just really felt like I needed to write something down about hitting my 300 day countdown again. (this is actually the 3rd time...first time I was engaged, TTC, and now this go round - which will be the last time I'm ever engaged, no joke, I'm done) I'll end with a few things about the wedding planning...
Weddings are EXPENSIVE. Like really expensive. We're paying for it all ourselves. It's a good thing I had put up a good bit of money for TTC (so instead of buying sperm with it...I'm buying a wedding dress!) The date is set, the venue is booked, the photographer is booked, we've been meeting with officiants, caterers, and DJs. We're registered at one place and know the other one. So far so good. OH!!! And we bought wedding rings! I was ridiculously excited to see a ring on his finger. Giddy like a little kid. My wedding band ended up costing a lot more than I was planning, but I was lucky I had something to trade in. I still had my engagement ring and wedding band from my previous engagement. So I was able to trade it in and get my wedding band for free! I think he paid about $4k for the ring and they gave me $2500 for it...so I call that a win. I supposed there's some odd symbolism there trading in one ring for another. Hmmm...
Anyways...I'm moving forward. I'm still sad in some ways to close the SMC chapter on my life (and it will ALWAYS be part of who I am), but I'm really optimistic for the future. I'm still worried about having problems getting pregnant later, but I will cross that bridge when I come to it. For now, I'll keep my new countdown going and look forward to these new plans I'm making.
I'm not sure anyone reads this anymore...I guess I write it more for me. But if anyone is hanging out out there...how's it going? :-)