Finding the right path
I have come to a major crossroads in life. When my mom was young she went to church everyday sunday and believed in god, as she got older she still wanted to believe but became more spiritual. When i was younger i went to sunday school everyday but i learned nothing! Why? Well this ass backwards church i went to thought the good way to teach kids about god was to hand out these little books and just give you candy bars, so we ate candy and didn't read out little books. Anyways i stopped going when i was 8 or so and haven't been back since. Though out my life i also said i was agnostic because i just wasn't sure that i believed anymore, then there was a time for 2 years where i was an atheist ( yeah i don't talk about it much, rough time there.). Anyways to why I'm at a crossroads. I'm longing for something solid in my life, something to believe in, something to give me that comfort in my soul that i long for. I think God maybe calling me, but why after 13 years? I have been flipping through my moms old bible that she gave me the past few nights. I just have to figure out whats right for me. I want to be a better person, but can i give up the things and stop doing the things that the bible thinks is wrong? I don't know if i can do that... Man oh man... Just another drama filled day for Tess :)