lots of thoughts
So today...not a good day. There are many reasons why it was not good:
1. I have a cold.
2. I feel like dog poo.
3. No Scott.
4. Government was gay...aka I did the entire project and still out of pity gave everyone else good grades...wtf?
5. I have a HuGEmongous headache.
6. Colby is annoying.
7. I threw up. thrice....three times if you didn't think that made sense.
8. Apparently I'm not so good when I'm in pain...I do tend to get slightly more aggatated. GRR.
9. Forester's tape is impossible.
10. Cutting my finger hurt a lot....:(
Anyway...The good thing...I got to talk to Stacie and Michele about stuff...it felt good to get it off my chest. And it made me feel less like I'm insane.
SO there's some things I'd like to get off my chest...just thoughts or feelings that are about other people. I won't put names, but its likely you'll know if its for you...
-You seem to have dropped off the face of the planet. Then suddenly you need something so you call me...typical its not the first time...I am sorry, but this time I will not be your doormat...go find a new one.
-Despite the fact that you and I don't always get to talk, when we do its like its always right back where it used to be. I love that. You are AWESOME. I will miss you next year kiddo.
-Without you...I would be psycho. You are THE only friend I've had stick it through everything...and I mean everything. We've had our downs, but I love you tons. I would walk through fire for you 24/7. I will add on however, that you make me sad sometimes...I see the way you see things or don't see them and it makes me feel horrible...mainly that people make you think the world is like that and also because I seem to be able to do nothing to change your opinion...its not the first time I've felt inadequate as a friend...and I really wish I wouldn't feel that.
-speaking of the first time I felt inadequate as a friend....you amaze me. not in a good way. you use people. you can't even keep your dick in your pants for one of THE most awesome girls in school....and you don't care that anyone cares about you...because no one is good enough for you...its not that people don't love you or care about you, its simply that you think those people just aren't enough...awesome...why don't you go kill yourself...it might be a better world if you did.
-I'm glad we fixed things. I'm not sure how we did, but I'm glad we did. You are a really cool, fun, intelligent, beautiful, friendly, talented, and funny person. You make feel like second chances are totally worth it...and you make me realize its good to be wrong sometimes. Don't ever let anyone treat you like you're just a sex icon...if they do...come knock on my door and I will beat them down for you...even though I know you could totally take them down yourself..this way is just more fun.lol.
-you...so much to say. I haven't felt this happy in a long time. For a while there I thought I'd lost the ability...but you came along and showed me what happiness is...You are sweeter to me than I deserve. You are understanding when I am feeling like crap...and well you are just wonderful...for you I am most grateful.
-you are so sexy....I know you're a girl...but DAMN. You dance like you should be the goddess of sex...lol. you know who you are...I love you. You are hilarious and I'm glad I've gotten to know you more this year...sorry it couldn't have been sooner...but I am glad I got to dance with you miss hot latina girl!!
-Another dance partner...not as good, but just as hott! I love you too. You have been so good for me. lol. You make me laugh, tell me its okay to not feel like whatever, and make sure that my I'm okay is genuine. You and I must keep in touch!!
Thats it for now...I'm sure I'll have some more later...but these did just make me want to cry, so yah...I love my class of 2005. I will miss so many of you guys next year. And seeing that we have like 1 week of school left...I feel real sad now.
XOXO
-TD
1. I have a cold.
2. I feel like dog poo.
3. No Scott.
4. Government was gay...aka I did the entire project and still out of pity gave everyone else good grades...wtf?
5. I have a HuGEmongous headache.
6. Colby is annoying.
7. I threw up. thrice....three times if you didn't think that made sense.
8. Apparently I'm not so good when I'm in pain...I do tend to get slightly more aggatated. GRR.
9. Forester's tape is impossible.
10. Cutting my finger hurt a lot....:(
Anyway...The good thing...I got to talk to Stacie and Michele about stuff...it felt good to get it off my chest. And it made me feel less like I'm insane.
SO there's some things I'd like to get off my chest...just thoughts or feelings that are about other people. I won't put names, but its likely you'll know if its for you...
-You seem to have dropped off the face of the planet. Then suddenly you need something so you call me...typical its not the first time...I am sorry, but this time I will not be your doormat...go find a new one.
-Despite the fact that you and I don't always get to talk, when we do its like its always right back where it used to be. I love that. You are AWESOME. I will miss you next year kiddo.
-Without you...I would be psycho. You are THE only friend I've had stick it through everything...and I mean everything. We've had our downs, but I love you tons. I would walk through fire for you 24/7. I will add on however, that you make me sad sometimes...I see the way you see things or don't see them and it makes me feel horrible...mainly that people make you think the world is like that and also because I seem to be able to do nothing to change your opinion...its not the first time I've felt inadequate as a friend...and I really wish I wouldn't feel that.
-speaking of the first time I felt inadequate as a friend....you amaze me. not in a good way. you use people. you can't even keep your dick in your pants for one of THE most awesome girls in school....and you don't care that anyone cares about you...because no one is good enough for you...its not that people don't love you or care about you, its simply that you think those people just aren't enough...awesome...why don't you go kill yourself...it might be a better world if you did.
-I'm glad we fixed things. I'm not sure how we did, but I'm glad we did. You are a really cool, fun, intelligent, beautiful, friendly, talented, and funny person. You make feel like second chances are totally worth it...and you make me realize its good to be wrong sometimes. Don't ever let anyone treat you like you're just a sex icon...if they do...come knock on my door and I will beat them down for you...even though I know you could totally take them down yourself..this way is just more fun.lol.
-you...so much to say. I haven't felt this happy in a long time. For a while there I thought I'd lost the ability...but you came along and showed me what happiness is...You are sweeter to me than I deserve. You are understanding when I am feeling like crap...and well you are just wonderful...for you I am most grateful.
-you are so sexy....I know you're a girl...but DAMN. You dance like you should be the goddess of sex...lol. you know who you are...I love you. You are hilarious and I'm glad I've gotten to know you more this year...sorry it couldn't have been sooner...but I am glad I got to dance with you miss hot latina girl!!
-Another dance partner...not as good, but just as hott! I love you too. You have been so good for me. lol. You make me laugh, tell me its okay to not feel like whatever, and make sure that my I'm okay is genuine. You and I must keep in touch!!
Thats it for now...I'm sure I'll have some more later...but these did just make me want to cry, so yah...I love my class of 2005. I will miss so many of you guys next year. And seeing that we have like 1 week of school left...I feel real sad now.
XOXO
-TD