Easter
Last night was good. I had some fun, in a good clean way. Not that I ever actually have unclean fun. I really enjoyed talking to Heidi, it made me feel better...and in a way I think it made me stop being so angry at them.
Oddly enough though, it did not keep me from being completely angry with the other side of my family. I hate to say it, but my sister is right. I really don't get anything out of being angry with them for the way they are. Letting them get to me doesn't make me better, it makes me weak. So what if they're nosy and immature and well inappropriate and rude...I need to just get over that. So here's a start. From now on, simply nod and smile...they won't know I tuned out what they said. Also, don't let the annoying little man get to me. And last but not least, I will not be mean, I just have to learn that it really isn't important.
So I guess it was an interesting Easter sunday. I had a headache the size of Canada this morning, so I didn't go to mass. I feel bad about that, but I wonder if I would have forced myself to go if it was my church and not theirs I was going to..?
Then I went to my Grandma's for lunch. It was awkward...I kept having to think of ways to answer questions that would not be completely smart assish. The food was weird...some was good, some was not. I liked seeing my grandparents though. I wish that I could see them more, but I don't think that its a good idea right now...that might just send me right back down, and I just now got back up.
Oh and one more thing, my decision is final, so do not try to sway my mind, it will just make me want to punch you...well that or yell a little.
Oddly enough though, it did not keep me from being completely angry with the other side of my family. I hate to say it, but my sister is right. I really don't get anything out of being angry with them for the way they are. Letting them get to me doesn't make me better, it makes me weak. So what if they're nosy and immature and well inappropriate and rude...I need to just get over that. So here's a start. From now on, simply nod and smile...they won't know I tuned out what they said. Also, don't let the annoying little man get to me. And last but not least, I will not be mean, I just have to learn that it really isn't important.
So I guess it was an interesting Easter sunday. I had a headache the size of Canada this morning, so I didn't go to mass. I feel bad about that, but I wonder if I would have forced myself to go if it was my church and not theirs I was going to..?
Then I went to my Grandma's for lunch. It was awkward...I kept having to think of ways to answer questions that would not be completely smart assish. The food was weird...some was good, some was not. I liked seeing my grandparents though. I wish that I could see them more, but I don't think that its a good idea right now...that might just send me right back down, and I just now got back up.
Oh and one more thing, my decision is final, so do not try to sway my mind, it will just make me want to punch you...well that or yell a little.