Hell
Yes you guessed it, I am in hell!!! I am depressed as a mother fuck. I need someone in my life even if she is all the way across the world. I need some one just to be able to hold, to talk to, to just be able to lay in each others arms. Even if we are not even dating. i need someone who is just that close of a best friend. Life sucks here!! The Marine Corps Birthday Ball is comming up on the first of Nov. and i dont even have anyone in mind to ask :( I was thinking about just asking someone from slidell but i have no idea how i would get them over here since i dont have a car. I just feel so alone. I mean Missy is my BEST friend and i love talking to her but she has her own stuff to deal with. Bonnie, i dont know, it just seems that every time i try to call her and try to talk something comes up and she has to go off and i dont know maybe its just me. And then there is Ariel, i love her to death but i think its more of a older brother to a younger sister love with a twist. i just dont know what to do. it seems as if i am still too stuck in the past and afraid to go out and meet new people. I think im afraid of the rejection...you know the old saying, "The worst thing they could say is no." But anyone could tell you that those two letters can destroy a person. This really does suck. I dont know what to do. if anybody has any words of advice or encouragement, feel free to leave a comment or write me at tesesite@msn.com