hello happy world
hello, sorry its been awhile since i have written. As many of you already know i am in the marine corps and thus i havent really had time to write. but today i have a lot on my mind that i want to say.
First of all, I hate this. I miss everyone that was close to me when i left! I am now second guessing my decision to join the corps. I just arived at NAS Pensicola for my Air Crew Candidate School last wednesday. So far i may have made like, lets see, no friends to hang out with. my room mate is married so he is always gone so i am basically stuck here being bored. Life sucks big cock here. My air wing keeps failing room inspections and so we are stuck in the barracks most of the time. My school sucks, i just got dropped a week so thats even longer i am stuck in this hell hole. i havent had a chance to talk to missy, ariel or bonny much because of our schedules. I plan on going home in two weeks for a three day weekend and i am going to try to talk my one friend pricilla ruiz into comming with me so we can go to the french quarter. she is 21 and short, she has a really cute smile and a great personallity. She is a die hard punk fan from California. I really dont have any intention on trying to be any more than friends and even if i did i dont think i would have the slightest chance. but she is still cool to hang out with.
Depression is a killer. I am suffering from this to the extreme. and being away from those i love is only making it worse. I would probably, no, i would give up every thing i am just to be back in slidell will my true friends.
My true feelings. i dont really know what they are. Accedentally fall in love too easy! lets see here Missy, Bonnie, Ariel and everyone i see on the streets. Im not saying its a bad thing because out of all of these came good things. I am seriously thinking about saying fuck all relationships. its so hard seeing my fellow marines dating each other and seeing them so happy together and them being able to see each other all the time cause the live in the same barracks. This is simply because im the type of guy who needs someone to always be able to hold and love but what can i say. I just wish i could just put these feeling in the back of my mind and just live life without worring about when will i be happy and with someone again. I am a fucking dork and thats not what women are looking for. I am not accepted and i just dont think that i will ever find the one.
Well im going to take a nap. Bonnie, missy and ariel, call me if you read this please. I really need someone to talk to. Everybody else, my msn messenger name is tesesite@msn.com, feel free to drop a line!
First of all, I hate this. I miss everyone that was close to me when i left! I am now second guessing my decision to join the corps. I just arived at NAS Pensicola for my Air Crew Candidate School last wednesday. So far i may have made like, lets see, no friends to hang out with. my room mate is married so he is always gone so i am basically stuck here being bored. Life sucks big cock here. My air wing keeps failing room inspections and so we are stuck in the barracks most of the time. My school sucks, i just got dropped a week so thats even longer i am stuck in this hell hole. i havent had a chance to talk to missy, ariel or bonny much because of our schedules. I plan on going home in two weeks for a three day weekend and i am going to try to talk my one friend pricilla ruiz into comming with me so we can go to the french quarter. she is 21 and short, she has a really cute smile and a great personallity. She is a die hard punk fan from California. I really dont have any intention on trying to be any more than friends and even if i did i dont think i would have the slightest chance. but she is still cool to hang out with.
Depression is a killer. I am suffering from this to the extreme. and being away from those i love is only making it worse. I would probably, no, i would give up every thing i am just to be back in slidell will my true friends.
My true feelings. i dont really know what they are. Accedentally fall in love too easy! lets see here Missy, Bonnie, Ariel and everyone i see on the streets. Im not saying its a bad thing because out of all of these came good things. I am seriously thinking about saying fuck all relationships. its so hard seeing my fellow marines dating each other and seeing them so happy together and them being able to see each other all the time cause the live in the same barracks. This is simply because im the type of guy who needs someone to always be able to hold and love but what can i say. I just wish i could just put these feeling in the back of my mind and just live life without worring about when will i be happy and with someone again. I am a fucking dork and thats not what women are looking for. I am not accepted and i just dont think that i will ever find the one.
Well im going to take a nap. Bonnie, missy and ariel, call me if you read this please. I really need someone to talk to. Everybody else, my msn messenger name is tesesite@msn.com, feel free to drop a line!