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I need to just say this.
I stumble sometimes. I get confused, and I trip up, or I do things I'm not proud of, like obsessing tonight rather than doing my homework like I should be when we have an exam tomorrow.
But I need to say this.
Despite it all--despite the fights, or the struggles, and the strange friendships I've formed, and the issues I still sometimes I have
I'm happy.
I don't tend to write my issues in here anymore, which is a good thing, I think, because they're not meant to be looked at, or judged, or psychoanalyzed. I have friends to talk to for that sort of thing, or to knock me out of my own head.
I have family I don't always get along with, and issues that I face, but I spend most of my time with my nose delved into my school books or my stories that I write, and I go to the gym when I get bored enough, and sometimes I drink too many energy drinks or lay in bed and think "What am I going to do if my scholarship doesn't come through?"
And then I realize it's okay. I'm not perfect. But I'm happy. I have a lot of things I regret, and I have a lot of people I can't stand, because I'm so sick of the "pity me" role being taken, and a lot of people I've left behind, because I need to shake them off. Like shaking off water from wings. And I don't regret that.
I've hurt some people, but they were people who probably needed to be for both of our own sakes. We weren't good for each other. It doesn't mean I hate them, it just means that I much prefer that we live lives apart, because we can't coexist. Because we're better people when we're not around each other, and I think recognizing that some people bring out the worst in me is a good thing.
I'm sometimes a screw up. Well, a lot of the time. And I'm sometimes insecure, and most of the time, I'm completely oblivious, but it's okay, because generally, I'm very happy, and I'm fine like that.
So that's all I wanted to say.
Also, on the note of shaking things off.
I'm purging my friends. So, if you want to stay, comment. If not, you're probably getting deleted. There are very few exceptions to the rule ♥
I stumble sometimes. I get confused, and I trip up, or I do things I'm not proud of, like obsessing tonight rather than doing my homework like I should be when we have an exam tomorrow.
But I need to say this.
Despite it all--despite the fights, or the struggles, and the strange friendships I've formed, and the issues I still sometimes I have
I'm happy.
I don't tend to write my issues in here anymore, which is a good thing, I think, because they're not meant to be looked at, or judged, or psychoanalyzed. I have friends to talk to for that sort of thing, or to knock me out of my own head.
I have family I don't always get along with, and issues that I face, but I spend most of my time with my nose delved into my school books or my stories that I write, and I go to the gym when I get bored enough, and sometimes I drink too many energy drinks or lay in bed and think "What am I going to do if my scholarship doesn't come through?"
And then I realize it's okay. I'm not perfect. But I'm happy. I have a lot of things I regret, and I have a lot of people I can't stand, because I'm so sick of the "pity me" role being taken, and a lot of people I've left behind, because I need to shake them off. Like shaking off water from wings. And I don't regret that.
I've hurt some people, but they were people who probably needed to be for both of our own sakes. We weren't good for each other. It doesn't mean I hate them, it just means that I much prefer that we live lives apart, because we can't coexist. Because we're better people when we're not around each other, and I think recognizing that some people bring out the worst in me is a good thing.
I'm sometimes a screw up. Well, a lot of the time. And I'm sometimes insecure, and most of the time, I'm completely oblivious, but it's okay, because generally, I'm very happy, and I'm fine like that.
So that's all I wanted to say.
Also, on the note of shaking things off.
I'm purging my friends. So, if you want to stay, comment. If not, you're probably getting deleted. There are very few exceptions to the rule ♥