i might as well just say im no longer gunna keep in touch with anyone in Orlando.
its bad enough you guys ignore me...
and now im asked to ignore one of my friends...
i dont exactly know how to do that...
i mean i can understand loosing touch with someone, but just straight up ignoring every text or comment...
its not as easy as you make it seem...
i realize zach is not in a good spot... im not trying to make it worse! trust me i know where he's at... remember my entire time in orlando was surrounded by it? i flew 3,000 miles apparently to deal with it and prolly made everyone's life worse... fuck! two of my once upon a time best friends chose my ex over me, which i can understand... he's there, im not, he's in more pain than me... i get it! i am completely thankful that u are there by his side... he needs some real friends... but... still it hurts that its all like this... im not trying to be selfish. im trying to be a friend to him, he said he'd rather me be a friend than not be in his life... its hard to loose one of the only ppl u can talk to when not too many others get u...
so i cant guarantee that ima stop talking to him, but i do have his feelings in mind, which u would know if u actually still talked to me or asked me how that last night in orlando ended... but u dont and u havent... so thats all i can say for now... bc my tears are making it hard for me to see...
but i hope u can understand that im not doing anything intentionally or on purpose or to be selfish...
and now im asked to ignore one of my friends...
i dont exactly know how to do that...
i mean i can understand loosing touch with someone, but just straight up ignoring every text or comment...
its not as easy as you make it seem...
i realize zach is not in a good spot... im not trying to make it worse! trust me i know where he's at... remember my entire time in orlando was surrounded by it? i flew 3,000 miles apparently to deal with it and prolly made everyone's life worse... fuck! two of my once upon a time best friends chose my ex over me, which i can understand... he's there, im not, he's in more pain than me... i get it! i am completely thankful that u are there by his side... he needs some real friends... but... still it hurts that its all like this... im not trying to be selfish. im trying to be a friend to him, he said he'd rather me be a friend than not be in his life... its hard to loose one of the only ppl u can talk to when not too many others get u...
so i cant guarantee that ima stop talking to him, but i do have his feelings in mind, which u would know if u actually still talked to me or asked me how that last night in orlando ended... but u dont and u havent... so thats all i can say for now... bc my tears are making it hard for me to see...
but i hope u can understand that im not doing anything intentionally or on purpose or to be selfish...