This is shit......
I often wonder....would a bullet to my head make this any better?? I am jobless, I have no car, I cant seem to get shit straight. I need help of every kind. I dont know what to do anymore, I am slowly going insane yet again. How many times do I have to put myself through this shit before I can get help from my family. I guess they dont really give a shit. I dont really think they have in a long time. I guess to them I am still a fuck up and I wont amount to anything. I guess I wont for the fact that they are holding me back, if they could do this one little thing for me I would be good. But they wont. So some how I am gonna have to figure out how to do everything from ground up. I hate this more then anything. Its not gonna go away. It wont.