With my freeze ray...I will stop the world
So...i'm sure most of you know by now but if not my dad passed away last saturday (the 12th) and i'm learning how to cope without him but the process is awful i'm coming to find.
It seems like i should be doing all the healing stuff but i feel like i'm only getting more erratic and angry at little things and crying spells at the tiniest things. Keeping this face up is beyond exhausting but i'm managing. Not to mention watching adult swim late night and seeing a random episode of some anime (code geass??) with a girl who looks similar to me is dressed in black and is crying at a funeral for her dad...No joke i even found it on youtube just to make sure i wasn't going insane...well TOO insane i guess is a better term for it.
But everyone has been very kind and i'm so grateful to have them all by my side and i hope to be back at work later this week and bennett comes home from Idaho tomorrow.
So yeah sorry to have such a depressing post and i was really wondering if LJ was the place for something like this but hey its mine and there are still some people who dont know....sooo yeah i just needed to barf a bunch of my jumbled thoughts onto something so viola~
But if any of you call i should be more likely to pick up and speak as i was unable to and didn't want to last week, so hit me up.
Oh yeah Dr. Horrible is amazing...Kat i can totally see you dressing up as him in this goggles n lab getup haha~
It seems like i should be doing all the healing stuff but i feel like i'm only getting more erratic and angry at little things and crying spells at the tiniest things. Keeping this face up is beyond exhausting but i'm managing. Not to mention watching adult swim late night and seeing a random episode of some anime (code geass??) with a girl who looks similar to me is dressed in black and is crying at a funeral for her dad...No joke i even found it on youtube just to make sure i wasn't going insane...well TOO insane i guess is a better term for it.
But everyone has been very kind and i'm so grateful to have them all by my side and i hope to be back at work later this week and bennett comes home from Idaho tomorrow.
So yeah sorry to have such a depressing post and i was really wondering if LJ was the place for something like this but hey its mine and there are still some people who dont know....sooo yeah i just needed to barf a bunch of my jumbled thoughts onto something so viola~
But if any of you call i should be more likely to pick up and speak as i was unable to and didn't want to last week, so hit me up.
Oh yeah Dr. Horrible is amazing...Kat i can totally see you dressing up as him in this goggles n lab getup haha~