8mm whore.
I feel like I'm walking a thin rope as of late.
Just teetering back and forth, just waiting for a gust of wind to blow me on my ass.
Yea, I'm sad.
What could ever lead you to think otherwise about my life?
Every entry is about how I feel like shit.
And well, it's because I always do.
I feel, sigh, like.. Im a speck.
I know I'm an amazing person.
I really am.
I never really realized HOW fucking cool I was until I was sat down and told.
And I began to think; I'm funny, not bad looking, I have a good head on my shoulders and I'm pretty fucking nice.
YET... to everyones constant surprise... I've never had a relationship worth while, or someone in my life willing to be with me longer than the duration of a short porno film.
I miss so many people right now.
And it hurts.
And I don't know how to go about getting any of them back.
And I don't know if I should even try.
Infact I should just not care.
But I do.
Surprise.
Friends, are really annoying right now.
Everything I do, is wrong.
Everything I say, is wrong.
And it's getting kind of old.
I don't know how to approach this, but I need to eventually.
I'm being drained.
This entry is all over the place.
So Im going to use my excellent joting skills to quickly go over everything. For clairification reasons.
Numero Uno- I miss Jon. I don't care who sees this. And yes I'm NAMING NAMES! But I do. Not our, whatever you called it, but our friendship. I miss shooting the shit, laughing at dumb people, and watching movies. Even playing stupid video games. Yea, I miss him.. WHAT THE FUCK EVER. I just don't know how to approach him and say shit. "FRIENDS?" No. Ugh. And I don't want to like.. put any stress into his life. I know woman, and they suck. And I don't want to cause a riff between him and his chicky poo. Ya know? Ya catch my drift man? Yea.. well Im done with this suibject cause, fuck it.
Numero twoOh?- Friends. Fucking gay right now. Only a select few are decent. ONE is fucking retarded. AND I dont give a shit about that friend at all really right now. They have no respect. And no IDEA of what the fuck they are doing. Another friend is just annoying the shit out of me. And it's getting to a point I'm going to snap. I cant stand to have things thrown in my face. And I dont like how every second you seem to have a complaint about me. I'm sorry, but I'm me. Take it or leave it.
Numero threeoh- Guys. Fucking hell. I want a guy who WANTS ME. No one else. Not an ex, not my friend, MEEEE! I want a guy, thats decent. Decent looking (appearance does count a little, come on), Funny! PLEASE MAKE ME LAUGH, MAKE ME SMILE, someone without BAGGAGE! Someone who can commit to me without thinking "Hey, am I completely over Jenna?" Fucking Christ. Guys guys guys.
Numero Fouroh- Woman. I cant stop thinking of you. Woman. I need one to play with. Play time please?
Numero Fiveoh- Family. I am walking a thin line with everyone in my family. Its like I cant breathe around them. They snap at the smallest things. And they make me feel stupid, ashamed of who I am, spoiled and just plain unworthy.
Numero Sixoh- Im fat. My skin is gay. And my hair is fucking retarded. I am completely unsatisfied with life.
Numero Sevenoh- Myh feet hurt
Numero EightOh- School? Its hard. But Im rolling with it. Can I do it? No. I cant. But Im going to fucking try.
See you all at the breaking point.
Good night and fare well. <3 e
Just teetering back and forth, just waiting for a gust of wind to blow me on my ass.
Yea, I'm sad.
What could ever lead you to think otherwise about my life?
Every entry is about how I feel like shit.
And well, it's because I always do.
I feel, sigh, like.. Im a speck.
I know I'm an amazing person.
I really am.
I never really realized HOW fucking cool I was until I was sat down and told.
And I began to think; I'm funny, not bad looking, I have a good head on my shoulders and I'm pretty fucking nice.
YET... to everyones constant surprise... I've never had a relationship worth while, or someone in my life willing to be with me longer than the duration of a short porno film.
I miss so many people right now.
And it hurts.
And I don't know how to go about getting any of them back.
And I don't know if I should even try.
Infact I should just not care.
But I do.
Surprise.
Friends, are really annoying right now.
Everything I do, is wrong.
Everything I say, is wrong.
And it's getting kind of old.
I don't know how to approach this, but I need to eventually.
I'm being drained.
This entry is all over the place.
So Im going to use my excellent joting skills to quickly go over everything. For clairification reasons.
Numero Uno- I miss Jon. I don't care who sees this. And yes I'm NAMING NAMES! But I do. Not our, whatever you called it, but our friendship. I miss shooting the shit, laughing at dumb people, and watching movies. Even playing stupid video games. Yea, I miss him.. WHAT THE FUCK EVER. I just don't know how to approach him and say shit. "FRIENDS?" No. Ugh. And I don't want to like.. put any stress into his life. I know woman, and they suck. And I don't want to cause a riff between him and his chicky poo. Ya know? Ya catch my drift man? Yea.. well Im done with this suibject cause, fuck it.
Numero twoOh?- Friends. Fucking gay right now. Only a select few are decent. ONE is fucking retarded. AND I dont give a shit about that friend at all really right now. They have no respect. And no IDEA of what the fuck they are doing. Another friend is just annoying the shit out of me. And it's getting to a point I'm going to snap. I cant stand to have things thrown in my face. And I dont like how every second you seem to have a complaint about me. I'm sorry, but I'm me. Take it or leave it.
Numero threeoh- Guys. Fucking hell. I want a guy who WANTS ME. No one else. Not an ex, not my friend, MEEEE! I want a guy, thats decent. Decent looking (appearance does count a little, come on), Funny! PLEASE MAKE ME LAUGH, MAKE ME SMILE, someone without BAGGAGE! Someone who can commit to me without thinking "Hey, am I completely over Jenna?" Fucking Christ. Guys guys guys.
Numero Fouroh- Woman. I cant stop thinking of you. Woman. I need one to play with. Play time please?
Numero Fiveoh- Family. I am walking a thin line with everyone in my family. Its like I cant breathe around them. They snap at the smallest things. And they make me feel stupid, ashamed of who I am, spoiled and just plain unworthy.
Numero Sixoh- Im fat. My skin is gay. And my hair is fucking retarded. I am completely unsatisfied with life.
Numero Sevenoh- Myh feet hurt
Numero EightOh- School? Its hard. But Im rolling with it. Can I do it? No. I cant. But Im going to fucking try.
See you all at the breaking point.
Good night and fare well. <3 e