Pre-Christmas whining...

[terrayndian]

*sigh* I was so hopeful that I would have something to post by the end of this month, but as everyone who has met me in person knows, I'm easily distracted. If I had stuck with one story, I'd have something to post. Instead, chap 5 of OWS grabbed me when I was weak and I'm halfway through both that chapter and the hockey story first chapter (

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[oceanserpent]

I figured you were busy and that was why I hadn't seen the update come through. Emotional rollercoaster over here of a different kind - found out on Thursday that my great grandfather was on his way out. Kidney failure, etc. Friday was my aunt's college graduation in Georgia (which I couldn't attend). Found out great uncle was in the hospital and doing poorly. Saturday rolls around and Mom tells me when I get out of the shower that grandma (in Georgia for aunt's graduation) was in the cardiac ward in Athens because her heart was doing acrobatics PLUS having a gall bladder attack. Sunday morning was her gall bladder surgery, and when she got out (and we arrived in another city to go Christmas shopping) we get the phone call that my great grandfather had died. Now, the great uncle is out of the hospital too, but says he just wants to join Joe (my cousin who died when I was in high school, his son). He's tired. My grandmother is out of the hospital too and should be home on time on the 27th. Yesterday, my friend who has been in the hospital since July (age 25) almost dies in the morning, has a temperature and white blood cell count spike come evening, and prompts a worried suggestion everyone should go visit before he goes... Doctor's said 6 months to 2 years, but now days or weeks, though he is doing better today. One of his lungs has collapsed 3 times in the last month.

Whooo. I do not blame you for not being able to write. I can't seem to write/play (RP) right now either. Rollercoasters are fun when they're physical, but not so much when they're emotional.

[oceanserpent]

Also, GREAT JOB ON TESTS! You'll do fine on the next one. Don't worry so much. You've got it all down and you'll get it done no problem. Have faith. :) Sometimes I think the worse we feel we did, the better we did.

[oceanserpent]

Just posted the Y-Con photos.

[terrayndian]

Y'know, that's what a couple people told me, but I'm not accustomed to that sort of thing. I usually have a pretty good sense of how I did. The difference is that I knew how I did on an absolute value, but who knows how many I guessed correctly and how much damage the curve did. I probably did just get lucky. ;)

But now I have to focus on the coming tests, and somehow convince myself to study harder, even when I have this nagging thought that, hey, I failed the last one and still pass, so why study so hard? ;)

[oceanserpent]

Well, there is definitely luck involved too. I'm sure I've passed a few tests like that - and my FSOT political portion is probably one of them!!!

I study my ass off for anything that stressed me out. I studied like hell for Japanese last year and this year. I recently got my grades, in fact, and despite doing 2 years at once, my Japanese grades were all good. A, A-, and B+. My business grades were so-so (B+ and C+), but hey, I passed everything! Ha ha ha. Considering how much class I missed for speech and conventions, I'm pretty happy.

[terrayndian]

Haha, I was wondering why I hadn't gotten my monthly reminder from you. Sometimes, I don't realize how much time has passed until I get that comment. ;)

Holy wow, that's harsh with all of the family stuff you've been through. I've been lucky (although I don't think that's the right word) since I never had the 'great' family relatives, so I haven't dealt with that extra loss in my life. Heck, all of my grandparents have passed away as of three years ago, only one from a prolonged cancer. That sort of thing is definitely hard to handle, and it sounds like you're going through a lot of it.

Don't force yourself to do anything you don't have the motivation to do. Honestly, most of my roller coaster Hell is from my own decisions, whereas yours is life messing with you. Well, and it can't help that you have the other stresses with your upcoming travels and waiting for the results on your narrative. I swear, with everything everyone else is doing, I should learn not to complain. ;)

[oceanserpent]

If you think about it, though, complaining goes both ways. I mean, I have all this stuff happening and it's different that the stuff you have happening, but it's stressful either way. But it's bad when you find you can't tell the good to someone because you're afraid of their response. I find myself not speaking of all the good things I do to my friend in the hospital's girlfriend, because I don't want to hear her go off on all the bad that's happening. It's like I'm unable to share my life, and it sucks. So, as long as you can enjoy the good with the bad, I think it's okay. :)

[terrayndian]

I definitely know that feeling of not wanting to speak of good things when other people are going through harder times. Heck, that was me about 4-5yrs ago, making good money and thinking that I had a real career in my hands... But that's life, always changing and challenging in its unique ways.

And I'm so happy that you have that viewpoint of everyone having their own stresses. My father is a hard type who will instantly throw out, 'I heard on the news about a family that lost their newborn in a fire and the mother just commit suicide, so don't think you have it rough,' whenever I try to vent. It's made me feel guilty I start to whine about things, but dang, I need the release and do it anyway. =P

[oceanserpent]

My Dad does that a little bit, but it's usually like, "You're tired? I was up at 4am to go to work!" and I say, "But you're ALWAYS up at 4am and I'm not!" I see things like that on the news, and think, "Damn, things aren't so bad for me," but that doesn't mean I don't have my own stressors and shouldn't vent, like you say. It's good and healthy to vent. I'm a good person to vent too. :) So if you need to and people won't let you, hit me up!