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[terrag]

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly.

I can feel it coming. That blackness, the dark mental excrement flood that hits me when I'm still and thinking to myself about all the crap in my life I've done or never did. Mostly it's just the past and people. A missed opportunity, some chance to take advantage of a lost moment, make a witty comeback, kiss the

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[theinnocence]

"When I'm not busy, mentally jabbing various sharp objects into the eyes of anyone who works behind a counter, I spend my time being jealous of what others have and sicked by it. Why the fuck do I want what you have? Why do I have this need inside of me to make myself into that which I detest? Will having it all make me happy inside? Will having the cool house and more stuff then whoever else I know, fill the hole in my head? "

that seems to be something that has bothered you almost your whole life. it was way more apparent when we were growing up and into your early 20s. i always felt bad that these thoughts ran through your head.

but hey! i try to give you extra love and hugs to make up for it ;)
in a oddly yet related token, did your present work on your computer?
i hope that alleviates some of the disgruntled american mind.

i love and miss you and wish that the distances wasn't so great so that when you did hit your creative spurts, i was there to encourage and go at them with you and hug you when you hit your downs.

i love you, bro!