I wish he read this.
Sometimes I wish he read my livejournal. I'd love for him to know what I'm going through. Maybe I wouldn't feel so alone if he knew what he was doing to me. I just need him to admit what he did or how he did what he did was wrong. That cheating on his wife was a mistake and even if he didn't want to me with me anymore, the way he went about it wasn't the best. I'm probably asking too much. I can't make him admit he made a mistake and no one can admit that for him, he's got to truly feel like what he did was a mistake. I don't know if he'll ever feel like what he's done was a mistake. Maybe in 10 years.
Emily asked me when I'd be ready to move on. To close the door to him and open it to "Mr. Right". Honestly, I have NO idea. Right now I'll say never because I have zero desire to even THINK about dating. I just want to stop hurting. I want to stop crying every time I see him or talk to him. I want to have a day where I don't pull into the drive and wish he would be there. I just want a day where Jovi isn't sad her Daddy's not here. I want a day where her Mommy's not sad her Daddy's not here.
Emily asked me when I'd be ready to move on. To close the door to him and open it to "Mr. Right". Honestly, I have NO idea. Right now I'll say never because I have zero desire to even THINK about dating. I just want to stop hurting. I want to stop crying every time I see him or talk to him. I want to have a day where I don't pull into the drive and wish he would be there. I just want a day where Jovi isn't sad her Daddy's not here. I want a day where her Mommy's not sad her Daddy's not here.