It wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't love him so much.....
"She" posted this as her fb status tonight:
"I can tell, I can tell how much you hate this
And deep down inside, you know it's killing me
I can call, wish you well and try to change this
But nothing I can say would change anything"
(Kelly Clarkson - "Save You")
It's funny she should post that. I mean, isn't that exactly the way I've been feeling for THREE MONTHS!?! That I'm hating every minute of this, that it's killing me deep down inside, that I want to wish him well if that's what he wants, that I can't change this, and that there's nothing I can say or do to make it better!?!?!?
I don't even know what to say. He filed. It was in the paper yesterday. My "dirty laundry" is now public record.
My heart hurts so much these days. My heart hurts for him. My heart hurts for Jovi. My heart hurts for me (finally). And above all of that, I pray DAILY that Christopher will feel God's love and that he'll be open to it. All I keep thinking is that he needs to know that God's love is there for him.