Being alone is not a lot of fun, you know?

[terradash]

I'm a social butterfly by nature.  So, being alone is no fun for me.  And it's not even being physically alone that's the problem, it's the emotionally alone that kills me so much.  I mean, I've spent the weekend with family and I know that my week is going to be filled with spending time with friends and I'm still scared because I hate feeling alone.  I don't have someone to kiss me goodnight for the first time in 6 years.  Sure, he wasn't always there to kiss me goodnight, but until a few months ago I could call him and he'd tell me goodnight.  Now it's more that I don't have anyone to call than anything else.  Even when he was busy or didn't have signal or was out late and couldn't talk, I still got to say "I love you, good night".  Now, I don't have anyone to call.  No one to tell good night.  No one to say "I love you" back.  It's like there's a huge hole in my heart and sometimes I can forget it's there, but all too often I'm reminded of how it was made and how it's going to stay there.

I should go to bed.  It's late and I'm emotional.  Besides, staying up later only makes the morning come quicker and with no one to spend my nights or mornings with, it's not something I want to rush along.  *okay, pitty party over.