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Hello All,
Ii cant even remember the last time I wrote in this thing. I believe i wrote about my friends in one of the last few entries and I thought that I would let every one know that things are not any better and they may possibly be worse if thats even possible. I just dont know what to do anymore. I cant wait to go to college and meet all new people. People that are around almost 24/7 that are always looking for something to do or someone to hang out with. I am so sick of sitting at home every weekend by myself I try to get people to go out but they always have some sort of excuse I feel like they just dont want to do stuff with me Then i think about what it is going to be like next year at school and for a brief moment I am happy but then I remind myself that college is 7 months away and for now I am stuck with the life I have. Every once in awhile everything with my friends seems to be ok but it is usaully only for one day (more liek part of a day) it seems so surreal because I know in the back of my head that things are not like they used to be and I go home thinking about what just happened and hoping that This time things are going to turn out different but each time I am just setting my self up for another dissappointment. I just dont know what to do anymore I cant wait till next year but what am I supposed to do in the mean time?
Ii cant even remember the last time I wrote in this thing. I believe i wrote about my friends in one of the last few entries and I thought that I would let every one know that things are not any better and they may possibly be worse if thats even possible. I just dont know what to do anymore. I cant wait to go to college and meet all new people. People that are around almost 24/7 that are always looking for something to do or someone to hang out with. I am so sick of sitting at home every weekend by myself I try to get people to go out but they always have some sort of excuse I feel like they just dont want to do stuff with me Then i think about what it is going to be like next year at school and for a brief moment I am happy but then I remind myself that college is 7 months away and for now I am stuck with the life I have. Every once in awhile everything with my friends seems to be ok but it is usaully only for one day (more liek part of a day) it seems so surreal because I know in the back of my head that things are not like they used to be and I go home thinking about what just happened and hoping that This time things are going to turn out different but each time I am just setting my self up for another dissappointment. I just dont know what to do anymore I cant wait till next year but what am I supposed to do in the mean time?