Is OK, was kinda a shock. I don't even member falling asleep. I was just watching tv and next i know. **RING RING** weird. Just wasn't all that with it is all. Is ok. But eh, just a little spat of depression, don't worry. Just sometimes feel like I am being compared to or not comparing to others by others you know? Not a fun feeling. It will pass. Kinda like that feeling of being last picked to play kickball. Or the kid not invited to the cool kids birthday party type deal. Eh I don't know how to explain it exactly. As you all have seen I am bad with words. Pictures are my world, always have been always will be. Even reading words puts me to sleep usually. (no seriously, after reading about three to 4 pages I am on my way to eye lids drooping.) I can portray so much more feeling and thought in a drawing than in my small vocabulary. I look at Monique's writings and that kid Eric's and i feel less, little, unintelligent. I see a contest, and I am losing. Another issue... I know that lately I haven't been very creative at all or adventurous. Anyone who meets me now thinks, hey look at that boring guy. Noone knows me anymore, or the things I can do. Only those few who have been here a long time... and even they don't know all I can and have done. Most of my most creative, smartest, and adventurous epics were from middle to high school. Then it all burned out with me burning out. Tired, drugged, and recovering from illness and surgeries. I see what others see now, and I would think the same things too. So it has been a long, slow and hard road to get here, but I am working on it. I have some pretty great friends who are helping and busting my ass to move, but it is still hard. I will get there. But thanks for the phone calls guys, and the worries. You all have nothing to worry about.
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