Feb 07, 2008 13:34
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Went back to the hospital last night.
For my acid reflux thing.
And by thing, I mean the disease I take medication for 4 - 7 times a week. It affects what I eat, how long I sit for, and if I'm stressed out, the pain is unbearable.
Two years ago, when I was diagnosed with GERD, I really never thought I'd end up in the hospital again for it. But I did. I've been eating regularly, exercising more, not drinking/smoking to excess anymore, so I don't know what triggered it. I just remember wanting to scream, feeling acid bubbling up around my throat, and it hurt so bad, so I called my mum, and Sarah and I went to urgent care.
We spent six hours there, to no avail.
I spent my time on a gurney in a hallway, writhing in pain, for SIX HOURS, where the only things they gave me were an alka seltzer tablet in water and a half-ounce shot of Maalox/Lidocane. The Maalox/Lidocane has helped before, but in 4-6 oz. doses, numbing my throat to my stomach for up to fifteen minutes. The dose they gave me last night didn't even help for more than a minute.
I guess I'm just disappointed. We all like to think we're young and invincible, that nothing happens to us because we haven't been alive long enough to be punished for anything. Or at least I felt that way..
I at least now know that, if my heartburn ever gets so severe again (restless, unable to sit/stand/lay down, severe stinging/burning from my belly button to the back of my throat, pain all throughout my ribcage), there's nothing that my hospital can do. They can't hook me up to an IV with morphine, they can't give me any painkillers. It's just something that I'm going to have to deal with. That's kind of upsetting.
And on that note, my mom had to go through all of this shit with me, listening to me cry on the phone in pain and calling me to make sure I was okay so many times, when she's going in for surgery to remove the tumor(s, now the doctors are unsure) in a week or so. She's so tough to deal with everything she's dealing and still deal with me, too.
Sickness is the worst thing that's ever happened.