Oct 05, 2013 14:41
And yes, I am bisexual.
I confessed to my mom back 2012 that I was. It's funny. For a long time I spent my time telling people that sexuality is not about phases, but for a long time I convinced myself my sexuality was all a phase. I am attracted to guys, but it's probably a phase. Something I'm curious about and will get over.
Until one day I figured that this was who I am and will always be.
I told my mom and she was more than accepting. My brother and sister are also bisexual, oddly enough. My family really doesn't care because, funny enough, homosexuality runs in the family. My uncle has been with his partner for 30 years, my aunt from New Jersey broke up with her husband ten years ago and is married to a woman, a few distant cousins of mine are gay, and both of my female cousins on my dad's side are lesbian.
So it's not all surprising. You can't fight what you are. My uncle knows and is loving about it, and when I told my aunt she shrugged and went "Okay, cool. I still love you."
The person I haven't told is my father. Granted, I'm NOT sure how he'd react, but he's immensely ignorant. I don't know if he'd accept it and move on with his life, or make a big deal and try to deny I am bisexual. I never told him and don't intend to.
My therapist told me that I don't have to tell anyone if I don't want to. She said that my sexuality is my business and it shouldn't matter what people think. And I agree. She's a wonderful doctor. My life has changed since I started seeing her. Some days I go in to her office tense and angry, and leave relaxed and happy.
In either case, I admitted to myself a long time ago what I am and who I am and I'm happy. I'm not ashamed to be bisexual, and it's something you just can't change about yourself, period.