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You know, I was just sitting here typing away about acne and trying to keep my attention focused on my job - get done so I can go on to more intriguing things like editing and all that. I've had a terrible time concentrating this morning, with my mind flitting here and there and all around. Sometimes I wonder about myself ... anyway, I got this email and found myself crying suddenly. (lol) The things we push down and away and ignore! They were/are good tears and yet they make me wonder why such a good thing would cause me to cry and I do believe it is because, even after all these years, I am always surprised that people would love me. Now isn't that sad? I mean, my conscious mind accepts that people love me and I think I may even have myself convinced that I love me! Obviously there is still a lot of stuff rampaging around in the unconscious or subconscious (never could keep them straight ... but how could you expect to keep something straight that you aren't even consciously aware of?!) mind. One "should not" sit there and cry over an email telling them how beautiful these little dream catchers are and how they can feel strength and beauty in them. I wonder how long healing takes - how many times do you hear truth and push it away? How many times do we hear truth from our family, friends and even strangers and rationalize it away ... and for what? To hang on to our pain? This is such an irrational thing to do! I think I tend to be a very rational person on the whole and yet, each day I run into that irrational hangin- on-to of things in the past - sometimes things I can't even remember.
I wonder, too, how much of those past things get into our bodies and create physical pain? Well, actually I do know the answer to that! Don't know why I keep wondering about the things I honestly know answers to ... (lol) probably another un/subconscious thing going on there. I've been studying this quote for about a month now - "Healing is the experience of the oneness of all things and our ability to take our place in that oneness." Deep down in my gut I know this and I even know how to apply this to my life. We raise our defenses high to keep out pain in our lives, whether that pain be physical, mental/emotional, psychic - whatever. The higher we raise those defenses, the more resistant we become. We think that resistance is what will keep us from feeling the pain and yet, I think the truth is, it is the acceptance that will, in the end, heal the pain. To hold against a tide means to tighten everything in order to stand. That stand we take can be against emotional pain at first and yet, to stand against it we must use our bodies - it eventually works into each muscle. We stop breathing when we hold so hard against any force - seeable or un-seeable. When we stop breathing the body becomes rigid and pretty soon, the body is going to break. Where do we learn to do that, I wonder?
Acceptance, though ... when you can be in an accepting place you are breathing and breathing relaxes the muscles and with relaxation things can pass through. (lol) Now doesn't that sound so utterly easy? I remember when I was studying, years ago, my teacher saying that life was so very easy ... so easy that we tend to make it difficult. There is a song I listening to frequently, don't remember the title or who sings it or even specifically what it is about! Part of one phrase says, if you are tired of fighting battles with yourself - change your mind. Utterly simple.
Perhaps, because we live in a society whose favorite philosophy is "no pain, no gain," then we have no referent for change through simplicity? How deeply programmed have we become to that philosophy - how far from the path have we strayed from the original Christian precept that God is love? We seem to have added a lot of exceptions to the Christ's original message through the ages ... (lol) and the message was so simple!
I wonder, too, how much of those past things get into our bodies and create physical pain? Well, actually I do know the answer to that! Don't know why I keep wondering about the things I honestly know answers to ... (lol) probably another un/subconscious thing going on there. I've been studying this quote for about a month now - "Healing is the experience of the oneness of all things and our ability to take our place in that oneness." Deep down in my gut I know this and I even know how to apply this to my life. We raise our defenses high to keep out pain in our lives, whether that pain be physical, mental/emotional, psychic - whatever. The higher we raise those defenses, the more resistant we become. We think that resistance is what will keep us from feeling the pain and yet, I think the truth is, it is the acceptance that will, in the end, heal the pain. To hold against a tide means to tighten everything in order to stand. That stand we take can be against emotional pain at first and yet, to stand against it we must use our bodies - it eventually works into each muscle. We stop breathing when we hold so hard against any force - seeable or un-seeable. When we stop breathing the body becomes rigid and pretty soon, the body is going to break. Where do we learn to do that, I wonder?
Acceptance, though ... when you can be in an accepting place you are breathing and breathing relaxes the muscles and with relaxation things can pass through. (lol) Now doesn't that sound so utterly easy? I remember when I was studying, years ago, my teacher saying that life was so very easy ... so easy that we tend to make it difficult. There is a song I listening to frequently, don't remember the title or who sings it or even specifically what it is about! Part of one phrase says, if you are tired of fighting battles with yourself - change your mind. Utterly simple.
Perhaps, because we live in a society whose favorite philosophy is "no pain, no gain," then we have no referent for change through simplicity? How deeply programmed have we become to that philosophy - how far from the path have we strayed from the original Christian precept that God is love? We seem to have added a lot of exceptions to the Christ's original message through the ages ... (lol) and the message was so simple!