Looking back
As friends post their year end reviews/recaps and I reflect on my own year, I feel exactly like my girl Diarra in saying "Dueces 2013!", don't let the door hit you on the way out.
This was not a year that answered. It asked constantly. At times I thought it asked more than I could handle. Yet here I still am, ready to tackle the next challenge and see where 2014 takes me.
Say what you want, tell me I'm cold and unfeeling, but Dad's passing in March was a release. For both him and me. Maybe one day I'll share the things I felt/wrote during that time and then I can let it go. Having never been one to let anything slow me down, I surprised myself with my self imposed hibernation. Luckily, it seems to be passing and I'm slowly pulling my head out of the sand.
The questions the year has asked still need answers. Will I stay in Ohio? Go back to Texas? Maybe chuck it all and leave the country? Will I be able to keep the house? Will I have to sell it to liquidate my parents estate trust? Will I ever love again? Is this all there is?
Thankfully, I'm surrounded by folks who care about me even when I don't seem to care about myself. You know the ones who call to check in on you even though they never hear back from you. I used to be one of those people and I'm hoping to recapture that particular trait in the new year. Restructuring. That's what 2014 is about to me.
Tonight I'll be burning the old year down to ash and beginning on the foundation of the new year.
I have much to be thankful for.
Happy New Year!
This was not a year that answered. It asked constantly. At times I thought it asked more than I could handle. Yet here I still am, ready to tackle the next challenge and see where 2014 takes me.
Say what you want, tell me I'm cold and unfeeling, but Dad's passing in March was a release. For both him and me. Maybe one day I'll share the things I felt/wrote during that time and then I can let it go. Having never been one to let anything slow me down, I surprised myself with my self imposed hibernation. Luckily, it seems to be passing and I'm slowly pulling my head out of the sand.
The questions the year has asked still need answers. Will I stay in Ohio? Go back to Texas? Maybe chuck it all and leave the country? Will I be able to keep the house? Will I have to sell it to liquidate my parents estate trust? Will I ever love again? Is this all there is?
Thankfully, I'm surrounded by folks who care about me even when I don't seem to care about myself. You know the ones who call to check in on you even though they never hear back from you. I used to be one of those people and I'm hoping to recapture that particular trait in the new year. Restructuring. That's what 2014 is about to me.
Tonight I'll be burning the old year down to ash and beginning on the foundation of the new year.
I have much to be thankful for.
Happy New Year!