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I wake up in the middle of the night and have panic attacks now. My heart races, I cry, I can't sleep. Im depressed, lonely, I cant focus on school. ALL i can think about is how hurt I am...This is way worse than ANY dissapointing break up, more scary than a nightmare. I am actually physically sick and driving myself mad. I will be okay, I know this, but right now I am really suffering and offended. All I want to do is sleep, but all I do then is dream about getting fired.
I filed for unemployment, I am writing letters to the owners, but nothing is making me feel better at this point. I just sleep and put off studying. Its all I can do right now...its ALL I can do. I need to be told I am missed and loved, but thats not all I need. If I knew how much this would break my heart, I would have been so much more light hearted about all the other painful things that have happened to me in the past few months.
I
need
somebody
to
come
and
hold
me...
really
tight...
for
a
long...
long
time.
I filed for unemployment, I am writing letters to the owners, but nothing is making me feel better at this point. I just sleep and put off studying. Its all I can do right now...its ALL I can do. I need to be told I am missed and loved, but thats not all I need. If I knew how much this would break my heart, I would have been so much more light hearted about all the other painful things that have happened to me in the past few months.
I
need
somebody
to
come
and
hold
me...
really
tight...
for
a
long...
long
time.