Everytime you close your eyes.
So its 2007. Ive decided to keep many journals going. I need to start somewhere, as when I am in Europe, I would especially like to keep a journal and so practice it is. It cant be too bad, right?
Ok, well this is my life (as if you were interested).
We will start with J. On NYE he told me how happy he was that we could be friends, and apologized that he threw a babies tantrum over our break up. I couldnt have been more relieved when he said that he was getting over us and am really happy that we can be friends. Im glad I am not in that anymore, it was over- months ago and I just wanted to see and try for the sake of whatever it was we were trying to save. Now i know my limits and will know better next time that whence not in love anymore, to say no. Its hard without a person constantly there at my disposal to hang out with, but I dont miss him or his love. Its finally over.
I drank my most favorite champagne ever at midnight, with Zoe, which made me, well extremely hopefull and happy...she has been a really really supportive and understanding friend who is always there when I need a clear head. She is one of the only people I feel comfortable calling, balling, and she can always calm me down, especially when its an animal related issue.
My resolutions:
To not feel so lonely when im alone (lonely is to be expected a little for a while after a break up, but I dont need lonely right now...i need content aloneness).
To accept that noone can be happy ALL the time, no matter how much you try to feel better, see your friends, work, try not to think, drink, or take Rx drugs.
I may be sad sometimes, but at least I feel alive. I think thats more than some can say.
I need to be a better listener and advice giver. I feel like lately I have been needing the advice more often than anyone, but I guess I feel the need to gain back those who confided in me and wanted my advice. (so if you need it and feel comfortable, call).
I want to start to knit. Not because i want to make cat scarves or anything, but because it makes doing surgeries easier in the long run.
Thats it that I can think of for life improvements at the moment.
Time makes it better, and the new year has really aided in my feeling better about me in many ways. Ive accepted that I can only try so hard, but at least in the end I can have less regrets because I gave things the best shot I could.
To the new year, to life, love, death, and enjoying everything inbetween.
Ok, well this is my life (as if you were interested).
We will start with J. On NYE he told me how happy he was that we could be friends, and apologized that he threw a babies tantrum over our break up. I couldnt have been more relieved when he said that he was getting over us and am really happy that we can be friends. Im glad I am not in that anymore, it was over- months ago and I just wanted to see and try for the sake of whatever it was we were trying to save. Now i know my limits and will know better next time that whence not in love anymore, to say no. Its hard without a person constantly there at my disposal to hang out with, but I dont miss him or his love. Its finally over.
I drank my most favorite champagne ever at midnight, with Zoe, which made me, well extremely hopefull and happy...she has been a really really supportive and understanding friend who is always there when I need a clear head. She is one of the only people I feel comfortable calling, balling, and she can always calm me down, especially when its an animal related issue.
My resolutions:
To not feel so lonely when im alone (lonely is to be expected a little for a while after a break up, but I dont need lonely right now...i need content aloneness).
To accept that noone can be happy ALL the time, no matter how much you try to feel better, see your friends, work, try not to think, drink, or take Rx drugs.
I may be sad sometimes, but at least I feel alive. I think thats more than some can say.
I need to be a better listener and advice giver. I feel like lately I have been needing the advice more often than anyone, but I guess I feel the need to gain back those who confided in me and wanted my advice. (so if you need it and feel comfortable, call).
I want to start to knit. Not because i want to make cat scarves or anything, but because it makes doing surgeries easier in the long run.
Thats it that I can think of for life improvements at the moment.
Time makes it better, and the new year has really aided in my feeling better about me in many ways. Ive accepted that I can only try so hard, but at least in the end I can have less regrets because I gave things the best shot I could.
To the new year, to life, love, death, and enjoying everything inbetween.