A weekend to remember
I'm just gonna pretend people read this...
For all of you who do not know, my 20th birthday was on Fri. the 30th of April. I began celebrating it on Thursday afternoon. Lots of events went on, from Thursday's shots with the Mayor of New Paltz and Friday's all day bake-out with a night filled with booze and P&G's; then onto Saturday with a 6PM TKE barbie, passing out @ 9PM, only to be woken up @ 3:30AM Sunday morning with 3 more cases of beer and 5 random guys + Jordan waltzing in. Continuing on funness @ Eccono Lodge and the College Diner trip @ 7:30 AM this morning still effed up. And of course the latest, going to strike and then getting a free pie with Mikyo and his friend and then went up the mountain to uhh go enjoy the scenery.
Don't worry the guys at the hotel weren't sketchy and I didn't get gang-banged.
So in conclusion, I am pretty wiped out and Sam is coming now but it won't be lovey-dovey cuz we're at the current moment fighting due to the fact that I went 2 their hotel.
Oops.
So that's gonna take a lil' fixing and I really don't know what to say except that I really am sorry and had trusted myself to believe that I was gonna be O.K. Guess I wasn't thinking enough. God I have such a one-track mind.
But wow it really baffles me how different I act in situations when I am with Sam vs. Asher. If I was with Asher, I am sure that when I was on the roof and I lead Mike on just because I love attention from guys, and I could of totally gotten with him. But with Sam, I just never have any desire to lead guys on---whenever I hang out with guys, I really think I just turn into them cuz of Sam. I think he has really started to change me---but not like in a bad way....I am just so much happier then I've been in forever and its so nice to have him to share everything, literally, everything with. I love the person I am when I am with him and it is absolutely dreadful when I'm not. He's the best thing for me and I can't believe I'm head over heels in love with him after only 3 months, after swearing off serious relationships and just becoming a lesbian. Like I just really really love him and I hate when I eff things up cuz I am so afraid of losing him cuz he's the world to me. I never really understood that saying but now it's perfect for how I feel. He's just, great, absolutely just what I want. Literally. How is that possible?
Well ya so he'll be here soon so I better get upstairs...
PS: John, I hate you. :)
Even tho you are so pissed at me right now, Sam, I hope you can forgive me. I love you so much, it still boggles my mind how much I do. I didn't even know I had this in me. And I don't want this feeling to go away for a long, long time.
For all of you who do not know, my 20th birthday was on Fri. the 30th of April. I began celebrating it on Thursday afternoon. Lots of events went on, from Thursday's shots with the Mayor of New Paltz and Friday's all day bake-out with a night filled with booze and P&G's; then onto Saturday with a 6PM TKE barbie, passing out @ 9PM, only to be woken up @ 3:30AM Sunday morning with 3 more cases of beer and 5 random guys + Jordan waltzing in. Continuing on funness @ Eccono Lodge and the College Diner trip @ 7:30 AM this morning still effed up. And of course the latest, going to strike and then getting a free pie with Mikyo and his friend and then went up the mountain to uhh go enjoy the scenery.
Don't worry the guys at the hotel weren't sketchy and I didn't get gang-banged.
So in conclusion, I am pretty wiped out and Sam is coming now but it won't be lovey-dovey cuz we're at the current moment fighting due to the fact that I went 2 their hotel.
Oops.
So that's gonna take a lil' fixing and I really don't know what to say except that I really am sorry and had trusted myself to believe that I was gonna be O.K. Guess I wasn't thinking enough. God I have such a one-track mind.
But wow it really baffles me how different I act in situations when I am with Sam vs. Asher. If I was with Asher, I am sure that when I was on the roof and I lead Mike on just because I love attention from guys, and I could of totally gotten with him. But with Sam, I just never have any desire to lead guys on---whenever I hang out with guys, I really think I just turn into them cuz of Sam. I think he has really started to change me---but not like in a bad way....I am just so much happier then I've been in forever and its so nice to have him to share everything, literally, everything with. I love the person I am when I am with him and it is absolutely dreadful when I'm not. He's the best thing for me and I can't believe I'm head over heels in love with him after only 3 months, after swearing off serious relationships and just becoming a lesbian. Like I just really really love him and I hate when I eff things up cuz I am so afraid of losing him cuz he's the world to me. I never really understood that saying but now it's perfect for how I feel. He's just, great, absolutely just what I want. Literally. How is that possible?
Well ya so he'll be here soon so I better get upstairs...
PS: John, I hate you. :)
Even tho you are so pissed at me right now, Sam, I hope you can forgive me. I love you so much, it still boggles my mind how much I do. I didn't even know I had this in me. And I don't want this feeling to go away for a long, long time.