gah, I need some happy
Last night I went to the store and grabbed a sixer of Abbey Ale, came home and drank three of 'em... and watched the last episodes of the second season of The 4400 (it's an awesome speculative-fiction show, and I recommend it) and looked at my current story outline, which doesn't actually fit into the chronological time frame that I wanted to fit it into... but that's one of those things that I care about, but nobody else will. I'm sure I can make it work somehow. It's called "retcon" and I damn well am allowed to do that to my own damn fan fiction.
Anyway, I woke up this morning extra-early so that I could have an extended snooze period... I find that to be really essential at this time of year, even though it's apparently bad for your health - but dammit it makes me happy to loll around in bed listening to the radio for an hour before getting up, even on a weekday. Unfortunately one of the first things I heard this morning was that Mrs. Clinton took Pennsylvania, and I rolled over and wondered if there was actually any point in getting up at all.
Then I remembered that this evening I go to the preview screening of HAROLD AND KUMAR ESCAPE FROM GUANTANAMO BAY, and I smiled and got up and put the coffee on.
I started taking psych meds again just in time... damn shame I can't really afford them right now. I called my prescription in this morning, but I haven't yet figured out how I'm going to pay for it. If I get it, it leaves me $30 for the next three weeks, and god help me if I get another bill (oh, like, say, the electricity, which I haven't seen yet). I have a couple of things to sell, but I don't know that it's going to get me 3 weeks worth of living expenses... and the goddamn Stumptown Comics Festival is this weekend, ever-so-filled with money-spending opportunities.
Next month, a bunch of money (by my standards) will be coming to me, but once again I have to make the choice between travel and shoring up my savings account for emergencies. Even if I get a cheap flight to New York, I have to have a few bucks to spend on food while I'm there. I don't know how I can do it without spending myself down to zero. How in the world did I imagine that I could do that, AND buy a better computer?
I am genuinely scared about the future. I have to figure something out, or else I have to give up my dream of actually having a vacation this year. Oh well; vacations are for the wealthy, not the likes of me.
Anyway, I woke up this morning extra-early so that I could have an extended snooze period... I find that to be really essential at this time of year, even though it's apparently bad for your health - but dammit it makes me happy to loll around in bed listening to the radio for an hour before getting up, even on a weekday. Unfortunately one of the first things I heard this morning was that Mrs. Clinton took Pennsylvania, and I rolled over and wondered if there was actually any point in getting up at all.
Then I remembered that this evening I go to the preview screening of HAROLD AND KUMAR ESCAPE FROM GUANTANAMO BAY, and I smiled and got up and put the coffee on.
I started taking psych meds again just in time... damn shame I can't really afford them right now. I called my prescription in this morning, but I haven't yet figured out how I'm going to pay for it. If I get it, it leaves me $30 for the next three weeks, and god help me if I get another bill (oh, like, say, the electricity, which I haven't seen yet). I have a couple of things to sell, but I don't know that it's going to get me 3 weeks worth of living expenses... and the goddamn Stumptown Comics Festival is this weekend, ever-so-filled with money-spending opportunities.
Next month, a bunch of money (by my standards) will be coming to me, but once again I have to make the choice between travel and shoring up my savings account for emergencies. Even if I get a cheap flight to New York, I have to have a few bucks to spend on food while I'm there. I don't know how I can do it without spending myself down to zero. How in the world did I imagine that I could do that, AND buy a better computer?
I am genuinely scared about the future. I have to figure something out, or else I have to give up my dream of actually having a vacation this year. Oh well; vacations are for the wealthy, not the likes of me.