hmm, yeah? it's monday night, all right.
I remember now that one of the things I like so much about FIGHT CLUB is the fact that I regularly want to punch myself in the face really hard. This constant struggle against myself is exhausting.
The Oscars were something of a wash last night... awash in champagne that is. Not happy that they dissed Brad Renfro in the Death Reel™. In general the Death Reel™ was very disappointing overall, especially compared to last year, when I was bawling my eyes out by the end of it. Yes, famed producers and agents and all, but it's not like losing Gregory Hines or anything. Oh, and Roy Scheider has to wait till next year. I think Brad's getting swept under the rug of time. I care a little less about that, because I just got my cheap DVD of APT PUPIL, so I can have gay mindfuck funtimes with Renfro & McKellen as needed.
No one seems to be around on the fandom side of my internet life. Not sure what to think. Maybe my new story just sucks or is pissing people off. I can't feel too bad about that; I personally think it's excellent, blisteringly hot, and the distillation of a compulsive, inexorable series of thoughts. Whatevs; tomorrow there'll be a new webcomic posted, and I can get my TWoP Heroes forum activity out of the way for the week. (I am deeply paranoid that it's that kind of approach that's making things worse; maybe if I stayed 100% dedicated, reading everything immediately, ignoring the haterz and the silly pubescents who are only having fun and working out their own compulsive, inexorable ideas, the glamour would not have fallen away... but no, no glamour at this point; only the hard slog of keeping the faith, soldiering on through the dark night which will remain for a good long while, etc. I'm still in love.)
Blitzen Trapper was brilliant on Saturday night (and they all still love me, and I just wanted to hug and kiss them all for staying so fantastic, sweet, bright, and genuine). Their latest album (which did come out last spring; again with the "super late to the party") is still in the process of growing on me, as is the latest Super Furry Animals album. I have them loaded up on heavy iPod rotation, along with a lot of tracks by Plump DJs, the usual Portishead, Cocteaux, Graham Coxon, and Air, and the AmpLive In Rainbows remix album, featuring a new favorite favorite song - "Reckonerz", featuring Chali2na, my favorite MC from Jurassic 5. It's a very good, un-frothy, uplifting song of hope and personal growth, plus it's Chali2na, "the verbal Herman Munster, the word enhancer", who I just love. Next up soon, once I really get tired of the Portishead/Air filler, Fuzzy Warbles v. 6, one of the great Andy Partridge/XTC demo/rarity comps, and the massive DVD of tracks from Miss Suzie.
All things considered
I'm trying to be a bigger man instead of being bitter
I'm trying to see a better plan instead of seeing glitter
I'm trying to be a better man and never be a quitter
I reckon I can
Really, the whole remix album is excellent, and it's been interesting to hear, seeing as I still, er, haven't heard more than one track from In Rainbows as it is. Because... er.. I waited to long to do the download from the band, and now I don't want to buy the album in a store because the distributor's going to get the money, not Thom and Jonny etc. Because I screwed up and left it too long because I was too busy writing.
I know, I know. "I'm doing it wrong." I so am. For some reason, people love me, and I really just don't get it, but I love them too. But I know I'm doing it wrong. (or am I?... maybe not... I don't suppose I'll ever know.)
God, I really want to punch Thomas Dekker. Can I? Please?
The Oscars were something of a wash last night... awash in champagne that is. Not happy that they dissed Brad Renfro in the Death Reel™. In general the Death Reel™ was very disappointing overall, especially compared to last year, when I was bawling my eyes out by the end of it. Yes, famed producers and agents and all, but it's not like losing Gregory Hines or anything. Oh, and Roy Scheider has to wait till next year. I think Brad's getting swept under the rug of time. I care a little less about that, because I just got my cheap DVD of APT PUPIL, so I can have gay mindfuck funtimes with Renfro & McKellen as needed.
No one seems to be around on the fandom side of my internet life. Not sure what to think. Maybe my new story just sucks or is pissing people off. I can't feel too bad about that; I personally think it's excellent, blisteringly hot, and the distillation of a compulsive, inexorable series of thoughts. Whatevs; tomorrow there'll be a new webcomic posted, and I can get my TWoP Heroes forum activity out of the way for the week. (I am deeply paranoid that it's that kind of approach that's making things worse; maybe if I stayed 100% dedicated, reading everything immediately, ignoring the haterz and the silly pubescents who are only having fun and working out their own compulsive, inexorable ideas, the glamour would not have fallen away... but no, no glamour at this point; only the hard slog of keeping the faith, soldiering on through the dark night which will remain for a good long while, etc. I'm still in love.)
Blitzen Trapper was brilliant on Saturday night (and they all still love me, and I just wanted to hug and kiss them all for staying so fantastic, sweet, bright, and genuine). Their latest album (which did come out last spring; again with the "super late to the party") is still in the process of growing on me, as is the latest Super Furry Animals album. I have them loaded up on heavy iPod rotation, along with a lot of tracks by Plump DJs, the usual Portishead, Cocteaux, Graham Coxon, and Air, and the AmpLive In Rainbows remix album, featuring a new favorite favorite song - "Reckonerz", featuring Chali2na, my favorite MC from Jurassic 5. It's a very good, un-frothy, uplifting song of hope and personal growth, plus it's Chali2na, "the verbal Herman Munster, the word enhancer", who I just love. Next up soon, once I really get tired of the Portishead/Air filler, Fuzzy Warbles v. 6, one of the great Andy Partridge/XTC demo/rarity comps, and the massive DVD of tracks from Miss Suzie.
All things considered
I'm trying to be a bigger man instead of being bitter
I'm trying to see a better plan instead of seeing glitter
I'm trying to be a better man and never be a quitter
I reckon I can
Really, the whole remix album is excellent, and it's been interesting to hear, seeing as I still, er, haven't heard more than one track from In Rainbows as it is. Because... er.. I waited to long to do the download from the band, and now I don't want to buy the album in a store because the distributor's going to get the money, not Thom and Jonny etc. Because I screwed up and left it too long because I was too busy writing.
I know, I know. "I'm doing it wrong." I so am. For some reason, people love me, and I really just don't get it, but I love them too. But I know I'm doing it wrong. (or am I?... maybe not... I don't suppose I'll ever know.)
God, I really want to punch Thomas Dekker. Can I? Please?