Thoughts. . .
Do you ever feel like you have to acquiesce to everyone else’s thoughts about your life?
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about some things, and it almost seems like some things in my life need to be cleared by a committee. Perhaps it’s just something I am creating in my head, but there are some things that I feel I can’t do because I might upset people close to me.
These aren’t things that are bad, or unbiblical, but they’re some things that not everyone would like.
Now, why would I like or want some things that people close to me disagree with? It’s because I’m a unique person. I have my own ideas of what I like and don’t like. Example: I love Hannibal Lecter. I think ‘the Silence of the Lambs’, ‘Hannibal’, and ‘Red Dragon’ are incredible movies, and they have encouraged me to look into the darker side of the human psyche. Now, I know some people who think that those same movies are lame or just plain a waste of time.
Granted, that is a rather superficial example, but you get the idea (I hope). It’s not that I’m wanting to go out and get involved in some paganism or go to a strip club or something. I just want to be able to do things without having to worry about what it’s going to do to the ministry or my credibility.
Sometimes, I feel like I’m trapped by the ministry. I don’t want to give it up, but because of it, there are things that I need to be careful of. I guess what it comes down to is: Do I ignore my desires to satisfy those that I care about? This is my quandary. . .
So what do I do? Is the ministry important enough to put myself off for a while? Would the ministry actually suffer, or am I fabricating these drastic, horrible consequences in my head? Or better yet, would those involved in the ministry adjust and accept me and my choices?
I hope the last one is the correct one. . .
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about some things, and it almost seems like some things in my life need to be cleared by a committee. Perhaps it’s just something I am creating in my head, but there are some things that I feel I can’t do because I might upset people close to me.
These aren’t things that are bad, or unbiblical, but they’re some things that not everyone would like.
Now, why would I like or want some things that people close to me disagree with? It’s because I’m a unique person. I have my own ideas of what I like and don’t like. Example: I love Hannibal Lecter. I think ‘the Silence of the Lambs’, ‘Hannibal’, and ‘Red Dragon’ are incredible movies, and they have encouraged me to look into the darker side of the human psyche. Now, I know some people who think that those same movies are lame or just plain a waste of time.
Granted, that is a rather superficial example, but you get the idea (I hope). It’s not that I’m wanting to go out and get involved in some paganism or go to a strip club or something. I just want to be able to do things without having to worry about what it’s going to do to the ministry or my credibility.
Sometimes, I feel like I’m trapped by the ministry. I don’t want to give it up, but because of it, there are things that I need to be careful of. I guess what it comes down to is: Do I ignore my desires to satisfy those that I care about? This is my quandary. . .
So what do I do? Is the ministry important enough to put myself off for a while? Would the ministry actually suffer, or am I fabricating these drastic, horrible consequences in my head? Or better yet, would those involved in the ministry adjust and accept me and my choices?
I hope the last one is the correct one. . .