I need to stop skipping school.
Doubt, love, pain, hope, faith, loneliness, loss, God. The same few things have been running through my mind for the past few days. Questions, always questions. Questions with no answers. Fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of that suffocating darkness. Fear of that immense loneliness I feel sometimes, fear. Then comes the pain from so much uncertainty and loneliness. Loss, loss of so much sometimes I wonder if I can really get it back.
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Love, this 4-letter word. How d'you know you're loved? Is there some feeling, some expression? It's such a small small word with immense meaning. Love. Is it enough to get me through this horrible blankness? Existence. I don't deny that it exists. I've seen it for myself, seen people so, so in love. But I don't feel it. Is it in my life? Really, truly there?
The man up there has been good. I've got two possible jobs. Life is good, I've been reacquainted with old friends. But I still feel I'm only scraping the surface. I can go further, can do so much more. I've got huge dreams, big ones. I want to go places, do things, big plans. I'm still stuck here though, procrastination and laziness doing their jobs efficiently. I need to get up and out, continue where I left off.
Give me strength, give me strength. Faith, hope and love. Show me where you are. Revelation, a guide.
Love.
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Love, this 4-letter word. How d'you know you're loved? Is there some feeling, some expression? It's such a small small word with immense meaning. Love. Is it enough to get me through this horrible blankness? Existence. I don't deny that it exists. I've seen it for myself, seen people so, so in love. But I don't feel it. Is it in my life? Really, truly there?
The man up there has been good. I've got two possible jobs. Life is good, I've been reacquainted with old friends. But I still feel I'm only scraping the surface. I can go further, can do so much more. I've got huge dreams, big ones. I want to go places, do things, big plans. I'm still stuck here though, procrastination and laziness doing their jobs efficiently. I need to get up and out, continue where I left off.
Give me strength, give me strength. Faith, hope and love. Show me where you are. Revelation, a guide.
Love.