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I've been thinking about what I was going to say when I finally got back into the swing of posting on LJ again. My excuses, my reasonings, my begging for forgiveness from those of you I left wondering where the hell I went... And then it came to me; in a sudden flash, I knew what I should say.
Screw it. Those of you who've kept up with my journal know that I do this. A lot. Life will throw things at me and it'll take me forever to get back to whatever I had been doing before it did so. Those of you who know me well also know that this is compounded by the fact that I start feeling strong pangs of anxiety when I try to figure out how to explain, guilt for having been gone so long, and I tend to be gone even longer because of these feelings.
So really, screw it. I'm not going to explain, I'm not going to make excuses. Those of you who are in my circle of friends probably know most of them anyhoo, and those of you who don't probably don't know me well enough to care what my "reasons" were. I've had half a dozen things I've wanted to post in the past two weeks, but because of my usual need to do an elongated explanation, I've put it off, not really having the time to do the explanation. I'm sick of it.
New rules for me: I post when I can. I don't sweat it when I don't. I don't give a flying shit whether or not anyone's out there reading it, since a JOURNAL isn't for really meant for others. (If I want attention like that, I'll do that podcast I've been wanting to do. :P) Anyone who doesn't like it can find other ways to keep track of me. It's really not hard to if you really want to know what's going on. And in return, I will stop beating myself up over not having contacted anyone in a while. If I get the urge to pop my head out, I will. So there. Don't ask what's brought this on, or I might actually tell you.
Screw it. Those of you who've kept up with my journal know that I do this. A lot. Life will throw things at me and it'll take me forever to get back to whatever I had been doing before it did so. Those of you who know me well also know that this is compounded by the fact that I start feeling strong pangs of anxiety when I try to figure out how to explain, guilt for having been gone so long, and I tend to be gone even longer because of these feelings.
So really, screw it. I'm not going to explain, I'm not going to make excuses. Those of you who are in my circle of friends probably know most of them anyhoo, and those of you who don't probably don't know me well enough to care what my "reasons" were. I've had half a dozen things I've wanted to post in the past two weeks, but because of my usual need to do an elongated explanation, I've put it off, not really having the time to do the explanation. I'm sick of it.
New rules for me: I post when I can. I don't sweat it when I don't. I don't give a flying shit whether or not anyone's out there reading it, since a JOURNAL isn't for really meant for others. (If I want attention like that, I'll do that podcast I've been wanting to do. :P) Anyone who doesn't like it can find other ways to keep track of me. It's really not hard to if you really want to know what's going on. And in return, I will stop beating myself up over not having contacted anyone in a while. If I get the urge to pop my head out, I will. So there. Don't ask what's brought this on, or I might actually tell you.