*sigh*
tonite i saw dark water,& it was the stupidest movie ever,but i had fun.alot of ppl were there.ummmmmm yea.
so it's 1 something in the morning & i'm sitting here in front of a computer screen,having a nice conversation with rachel,filled with many different emotions.& i know u could give a damn about it,so i won't go into too much detail.i keep thinking about opportunities,& how it's always a crapshoot when u make decisions.u never know whether it was the right choice or not.anyways,i've just been wondering lately if i missed some opportunities a long time ago,& i'm curious.it's not like i wanna change anything in my life right now,because i really am happy,i just wanna add more positive things to it,but it might be too late now.i guess the cause of my insecurity is summer.on one hand,it's nice to relax & sleep late & have the time to be more spontanieous & not have to stress over school or dance or anything routine.on the other,i miss seeing everyone & my friends & laughing everyday & dancing...so i find myself stressing over "do my friends even miss me?" or "what if they've forgotten about me?" i guess after a year as awesome as this one((besides the little things)),it's hard to adjust to it all not happening.then again,this week may be causing this feeling,b/c last week when i was actually hanging out with ppl,i felt so secure/happy.so this was my boring entry about how this week turned out to be pretty blah & made me sad.actually,writing this down made me feel a little more optomistic,cuz now i realized that this week ahead i can hang out with ppl all i want,& then next monday i leave for camp for 3 weeks in a totally different place where i always have lots of fun.bottom line::i miss everyone & want to see u.ok i'm done now lol.sry for the really long entry =)
so it's 1 something in the morning & i'm sitting here in front of a computer screen,having a nice conversation with rachel,filled with many different emotions.& i know u could give a damn about it,so i won't go into too much detail.i keep thinking about opportunities,& how it's always a crapshoot when u make decisions.u never know whether it was the right choice or not.anyways,i've just been wondering lately if i missed some opportunities a long time ago,& i'm curious.it's not like i wanna change anything in my life right now,because i really am happy,i just wanna add more positive things to it,but it might be too late now.i guess the cause of my insecurity is summer.on one hand,it's nice to relax & sleep late & have the time to be more spontanieous & not have to stress over school or dance or anything routine.on the other,i miss seeing everyone & my friends & laughing everyday & dancing...so i find myself stressing over "do my friends even miss me?" or "what if they've forgotten about me?" i guess after a year as awesome as this one((besides the little things)),it's hard to adjust to it all not happening.then again,this week may be causing this feeling,b/c last week when i was actually hanging out with ppl,i felt so secure/happy.so this was my boring entry about how this week turned out to be pretty blah & made me sad.actually,writing this down made me feel a little more optomistic,cuz now i realized that this week ahead i can hang out with ppl all i want,& then next monday i leave for camp for 3 weeks in a totally different place where i always have lots of fun.bottom line::i miss everyone & want to see u.ok i'm done now lol.sry for the really long entry =)