time is linear
Time is so tangible when you're in pain. When you're healthy, whole afternoons can be frittered away playing the Sims or watching House and you go to bed that night wondering what happened to those big chunks of time you woke up with. But one headache and it all comes to a screeching halt. I'm sitting here having an IM conversation. I finish typing and send my message; I put my head in my hands and wait for the reply... every second ticks past like a giant pendulem swinging to and fro. I miss my boyfriend. He's out there doing male motorcycle bonding. My day was so long. So many days with not enough sleep. I think I'll ask for a good head rub before I pass out. I love my cat so much. Kimmay's sad. I never know how to comfort her so I bombard her with logic instead; my usual tactic. Fuck, does that EVER work? I guess it works on me because dad does it and I pretty much only listen to him when it comes to relationships. Most people would pity me for that. I could care less. My dad's been happily married for 40 years and few people can say the same. So despite all his cold, negative, stubborn qualities, I think I could afford to listen to him about something like that.
We tried letting the cat regulate his own eating habits. It's a pain in the ass having his snip at our heels or howl for food every time we walk down the hall. The result? He positively gorged himself around the clock for a week, became grotesquely obese, cranky, and refused to cuddle. We cut him off cold turkey and went to Lakeport for 2 days leaving him to starve during that time. When we came back, he wouldn't leave our sides. He's purring in my lap as I type this. So, he's back on his diet of 2/3 cup of weight-loss food per day and he's a supreme cuddle slut. I've never been happier.
Now if I could only get rid of this headache... it scares me a bit, you know. Third headache in a week. I rarely get headaches. Hoping it's from the new birth control. They said side effects generally stop after 2 months. We'll see. I hope I don't have bigger problems...
We tried letting the cat regulate his own eating habits. It's a pain in the ass having his snip at our heels or howl for food every time we walk down the hall. The result? He positively gorged himself around the clock for a week, became grotesquely obese, cranky, and refused to cuddle. We cut him off cold turkey and went to Lakeport for 2 days leaving him to starve during that time. When we came back, he wouldn't leave our sides. He's purring in my lap as I type this. So, he's back on his diet of 2/3 cup of weight-loss food per day and he's a supreme cuddle slut. I've never been happier.
Now if I could only get rid of this headache... it scares me a bit, you know. Third headache in a week. I rarely get headaches. Hoping it's from the new birth control. They said side effects generally stop after 2 months. We'll see. I hope I don't have bigger problems...