Student teaching
I have realized that when you student teach you take on your cooperative teacher's perspective.
With the over bearing, smothering elementary teacher I could remediate her class and turn it around. I brought the kids around. Just before I left I got the kids to think for themselves on the highest level of Bloom's Taxonomy. It was rewarding. Really rewarding despite the constant fight.
However right now I am in a depression. Eighth grade last quarter of the year. This teacher is not overbearing. She is not smothering. She's in credibly passive. She has a defeatist attitude and rather than empower the kids, she does all the work for them. When the kids don't behave as she wishes, she freezes them out emotionally. She's passive agressive. She's given up on the kids and is trying to maintain until she can pass them off to high school.
I find I can't function in this atmosphere.
I do the best I can. But she won't let me advocate for the kids; only let me do the bare minimum that she is capable of. Everytime I try to soar or rather enable the kids to soar she, clips my wings.
I find I want to give up. I want to quit. I feel like I can't breathe in this environment.
Every morning I leave for my student teacher placement, I cry.
In 11 days I will be done.
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